One of the most perplexing posts from Null on the topic of CP was this one in 2017. That stupid @RubinRemus account tweeted this out during #DropKiwiFarms while he was harassing Caroline Farrow, for which he got eventually banned. I screenshot this thread at the time because I was kinda shocked at this post from Null, which I had not seen before.
You have to read this post very carefully to understand what Null is talking about here, so let's break it down, line by line. I haven't read the thread it was posted it (if anyone has the post in context please send me an archived link to that thread), but once you break it down, it becomes quite obvious what Null is referring to here.
"Let me put it like this: I have been around imageboards since I was in highschool."
Null admits that's he a veteran of Image Boards. Compare this statement to this Deviantart story by Null - which Null DFEd the moment it was posted here on OF - where Null wrote in greater detail about the kinds of people he was talking to on Image Boards as a teenager... including pedophiles:
Ever since I was a small child being forewarned by my parents about the dangers of the Internet, I've known about how dishearteningly bizarre the people staring at screens can be. It's not a unique thought to believe that the anonymity provided by the computer allows users to be who they otherwise cannot, seeing how even thirteen year old boys playing "Call of Duty" will be quick to point out that they could beat you up if you weren't on the Internet.
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In my e-Journey I have met a great deal of interesting individuals, including intellectuals, savants, and abominations. People with great masses of brain power locked inside a mind that does not let them communicate proficiently without the written word, people who are perfectly normal and whom use the Internet as a tool to talk to friends and play games, and people whom would likely be committed to an asylum if even one tenth of what they said online were orated to anyone.
I've met out-of-the-closet pedophiles. I've met women that eat their own cervical mucus and whom masturbate by using slugs. I've met people whose biggest fantasy is to have sex with dolphins. I've met sociopaths, budding spree killers, and everyone in between. I've been a pen-pal to a convict with a life sentence, and I've been a shoulder to cry on for an 11 year old girl being raped by her father on a regular basis. I've done enough in the last 8 years on the Internet to write several epics and, if reenacted in the real world, would take multiple reincarnations to fulfill.
And in these experiences, I've learned a great deal. I've learned that I don't really like women and if I could choose to be gay, I would. I've learned that the best way to get someone to not want to talk to you is to threaten to murder them (repeatedly). I've learned that not talking to someone is as great a way to get their attention as actually being good at conversation is. And above all else, if I had to take one lesson out of what I've learned from Mr. Life in Prison, Missus Raped by Dad, Mr. I'm Killing Myself, Missus I Cut Myself, and about every person I've ever used to confide in:
Nobody wants to hear about your problems.
An Internet Adventurer (subtitled: "A message for my dear friends.")
https://www.deviantart.com/2tsuki/art/An-Internet-Adventurer-258051998
Archived: https://archive.ph/djz0c
In this story Null admitted that, as a teenager on the Image Boards, he was talking to all kinds of degenerates, but that he saw this activity as a kind of adventure on the internet. Null doesn't say: "I was groomed by degenerates on Image Boards" or "I was the victim of EPE on Image Boards", presumably because he himself sought these people out and felt a sense of excitement at being able to talk to them. (I do wonder who this was:
"I've been a shoulder to cry on for an 11 year old girl being raped by her father on a regular basis"... Null was talking to an 11 year old girl who was the victim of incest? Null was 19 in 2011, so perhaps this happened earlier? Null said that Clara Stockings came from an abusive household, without specifying what the abuse was, so was this perhaps a reference to Clara... or some other girl? I am asking because Null referred to himself as
"her shoulder to cry on, and she was mine" in one of his posts, so this seems like a repetition of that.)
"I moderated 8chan, I directly dealt with pedophiles, borderline CP, and CP every day while moderating 8chan"
Null admits that he was exposed to CP and pedophiles constantly while he was an 8chan moderator. He has spoken about this on MATI as well. Keep in mind "Project Exodus", and Null's vague statement about how he was going to create a large database of CP fingerprints using
"trusted sources", whatever that means. Maybe Null was collecting the CP that pedos were posting on 8chan so he could later use it to generate fingerprints for the "Project Exodus" database? It's clear to me that Project Exodus was likely the result of Null's frustration with trying to moderate Image Boards, but I am still wondering about that
"trusted sources" statement.
"and I have never heard of this girl until today. She's not the iPod kid. She's not Jessi Slaughter."
This is truly the most perplexing and shocking statement from Null in this post. Null is responding to a picture of a girl (I haven't seen the picture he's referring to), and basically suggests that he has so much CP, such large quantities of CP on 8chan trying to moderate that website... that he thinks he is able to recognize a girl based on all the previous CP he has seen! Null suggests he is basically a human version of "Project Exodus". This particular statement to me is frankly quite frightening, because it so casually alludes to the staggering amounts of CP that Null must've seen while moderating 8chan/16chan, which might explain the need for "Project Exodus".
"It's my opinion that unless you are in that realm of the Internet, you wouldn't know about her. And by 'that realm' I mean the CP Tor websites."
Here we have another truly perplexing statement from Null. Null suggests here, that his ability to be a human "Project Exodus" - to recognize a child in an image based on all the previous CP he had seen on 8chan - comes from being
"in that realm of the Internet... the CP Tor websites". Is Null suggesting that he himself was in that realm? Or is Null suggesting that, whomever responded to whatever image he was referring to in this KF thread (I haven't seen the full KF thread), that this particular image was so obscure that it could've only originated from a pedophile who was frequenting
"CP Tor websites"? Isn't this an admission on Null's part that he was already aware, in 2017, that pedophiles from the darknet had found their way to his KiwiFarms?
I find it rather shocking that Null was just casually discussing his ability to recognize children in CP, from having seen copious amounts of CP as an 8chan moderator. I find it even more bizarre that, in working on "Project Exodus" (a CP recognition program), Null was trying to create a software version of himself.
Null really shouldn't be acting so obtuse about the dark underbelly of KF. It's very possible that some of those 8chan or 16chan pedophiles might have followed Null onto KiwiFarms. After all, Null openly let these 16chan pedophiles know, in 2018, that he was considering letting them onto yet another containment thread on KF. He thus let them know they were welcome onto KF.