I watched Vivian's Gaza Diaries Week One and I didn't cry - How a troon's Evil Eye taints everything it casts its corrupting gaze upon.
I saw Hussein hanged and Benazir Bhutto assassinated on TV (WITH MY PARENTS) before I ever started watching porn.
Bet you’ll never guess what my mother (and church/cult!) freaked out about me watching though.
Source: Instagram update by Palestinian influencer Plestia Alaqad - The
Evil Eye is a superstition prevalent in the Middle East, akin to casting a curse or bad spell, in this case by casting a malicious or envious gaze upon someone, sometimes accompanied by speaking ill of them, leading to them suffering a stroke of bad luck. The blue eye-shaped pendant in the above image is meant to be a protection against the curse of the Evil Eye. In this shot, Plestia is holding a piece of a broken mirror as well as a broken
Evil Eye protection amulet, which broken pieces in this context together would symbolize double bad luck. None of this cultural context is provided by Vivian in his video compilation where the above image was used.
I decided to watch the first week of Vivian's Gaza Diaries series, which is two and a half hours. Vivian complains that very few people want to see his Gaza Diaries. I wanted to see what was actually in these compilations. I had already seen the Bisan one - which I have already posted about and which him literally just pilfering her videos and cross-posting them to his own channel with no permission requested or given - and I just wanted to see if the Gaza Diaries were any different.
Since October 7th, 2023, the illegal Zionist fascist state of Israel has been carrying out a calculated genocide against Palestinians in the Gaza Strip, the culmination of a brutal 75-year colonial occupation of Palestine by the Zionist entity Israel. Genocide is the standard defining feature of colonialism, but the Gaza Holocaust is unique in human history for being the first genocide to be streamed live on social media for all the world to watch unfold in real time, and this is only made possible by the courage, determination, and strength of the Palestinian journalists and content creators who have been putting themselves directly in danger in order to document the truth of what their people are experiencing. These are the Gaza Diaries, a humble effort by a white Western colonizer to aggregate, preserve, and present a timeline of the Gaza genocide using the social media footage of twelve of these Palestinian journalists, storytellers, and creators. Despite the medium through which the Gaza Diaries are being released, THIS IS NOT ENTERTAINMENT. THIS IS NOT CONTENT. This is a historical documentary meant to serve as a historical record of the atrocities committed by the terrorist state Israel and the global powers that fund and support them. Keep this in mind, as the contents of these Diaries are very graphic and very upsetting. Viewer discretion is STRONGLY advised. But for people in the West, in particular white people, and in particular white people who (like me) are located at the heart of the American empire -- viewing is STRONGLY recommended. These are the atrocities we are complicit in. This is the truth, and it is our mission to witness it. This video contains footage from 14 October 2023 to 20 October 2023. All footage comes from the Instagram and/or Twitter pages of the following Palestinians: BISAN OWDA - https://www.instagram.com/wizard_bisan1/ - https://twitter.com/wizardbisan MOTAZ AZAIZA - https://www.instagram.com/motaz_azaiza/ - https://twitter.com/azaizamotaz9 PLESTIA ALAQAD - https://www.instagram.com/byplestia/ HIND KHOUDARY - https://www.instagram.com/hindkhoudary/ - https://twitter.com/Hind_Gaza SALEH AL JAFARAWI - https://www.instagram.com/saleh_aljaf... ISMAIL AL DAHDOUH - https://www.instagram.com/ismail.jood/ ALI JADALLAH - https://www.instagram.com/alijadallah66/ DOAA AL BAZ - https://www.instagram.com/_doaa_moham... MOHAMED AL-MASRI - https://www.instagram.com/mohamed.h.m... WAEL AL-DAHDOUH - https://www.instagram.com/wael_eldahd... HAMZA AL-DAHDOUH - https://www.instagram.com/hamza_w_dah... LAMA JAMOUS - https://www.instagram.com/lama_jamous9/ By Bisan: 100 Days in Gaza (another documentary chronicling the Gaza Holocaust): From the river to the sea, Palestine WILL be free! #FreePalestine #PermanentCeasefireNow #EndIsraeliOccupation #FromTheRiverToTheSea
Here is Vivian talking about his Palestine Derangement Syndrome on a recent Livestream, describing how it has affected him, saying he has seen
"more dead babies than any human being should ever have to see" while working the Gaza Diaries:
"We need to witness it", he insists, No Vivian, you are the one who is obsessed with this kind of footage because you've fried your brain with drugs, porn and HRT. You have desensitized yourself to the point where, as you openly admitted in your videos, you can no longer experience normal human emotions, like arousal or romance. In order to feel anything at all, you now have to watch the most gruesome extreme footage, and you justify this fixation to yourself by trying to make it seem like some moral obligation you have to fulfill. You are not obligated to see anything, and you're certainly not obligated to hoard all these videos to the detriment of your channel. Most of these people are Al Jazeera war correspondents, so Al Jazeera and these other Arabic mainstream media channels they work with, they obviously have their own archives of all their footage - including everything they didn't even broadcast! They themselves admit in their videos - that you literally quote from in this compilation - that they've only uploaded a tenth of what they've actually shot for MSM. This obsessive hoarding of their social media updates is you repeating the same behaviours you did when you first got into online porn, downloading whole folders of it, scrolling through it to find ever more extreme videos to goon to. Sex is already connected to gore and violence in your head because of your obsession with de Sade and other authors of violent gruesome pornography, and these smartphone videos from Palestine are just more of the same for someone like you, no matter how hard you try to come up with a moral justification for your voyeurism to make yourself seem righteous instead of voyeuristic. The only person you are fooling here is yourself.
Vivian claims that his compilations get relatively few views because Youtube is suppressing them, but I think the problem is Vivian himself, the way he has branded himself on Youtube and the kind of audience he has attracted. But more on that later. Suffice to say, after firing their head editor for signing an explicitly anti-semitic letter, even Artforum, the leading arts magazine of the world, has caved in and is now featuring pro-Palestinian content in their latest issue:
Gaza Diaries Week One begins with a Note from the Editor, which is a voice over of Vivian excessively trigger-warning the viewer. Like that's necessary with this kind of content.
"If you possess a human heart, you will be depressed, distressed and distraught. You will cry tears of sadness and fury alike."... where was this energy while Islamists were constantly committing acts of terrorism against the West?
"You will likely see things you've never seen IRL before, outside of the brutal spectacle of Hollywood pictures", again, this statement comes a place of selective memory, outright amnesia even. The people in the West who have experienced Islamic terrorism have seen all this stuff before, in their own cities, in their own streets. This idea, that Western people have never experienced a mass casualty event with corpses strewn in the streets is beyond ignorant. This statement does not address the people of NYC, the people of Boston, the people of London, the people of Madrid, the people of Brussels, the people of Israel. The people who have been committing terrorist acts against us for decades didn't feel sorry for us. They targeted innocent civilians just going about their lives. If they don't give a fuck about us, why should we care about them? Did Islamists feel sorry for the teenage girls who died at an Ariana Grande concert in the UK? Are the victims of Islamist terrorism given a voice in the West? Are they allowed to come out and say they actually hate those who did this to them?
"my fellow creators, your silence is deafening. - it's time to do your fucking job ", this is clearly aimed at ContraPoints and PhilosophyTube. I remember back in 2017 Nyk once posted a single tweet where he made a joke about Dzooz and the war in Syria, which provoked such indignation that Nyk immediately deleted the tweet never to touch upon the subject ever again. That's how utterly terrified Nyk is of the topic of conflict in the Middle East. Nyk and Oliver have already made their Youtube millions Vivian, why would they risk losing the gravy train? Then he repeats his Adorno "No More Poetry Only Raw Meat" mantra of
"This is not entertainment.".
"This is the first time we've been able to watch a live genocide", no, this is the first time millennials like you who were too busy spending their 20s at porno shoots and sex clubs, have decided to take some time off from their gooning sessions to pay attention to the news to see what a real war looks like in the age of digital media.
The first war correspondent whose work is appropriated by Vivian in this compilation is Motaz Azaiza. Vivian doesn't provide any biographical details about this person. Apparently he couldn't be bothered to look those up. In their avatar picture this person is wearing a "PRESS" pass on their vest, so they're clearly working for some news organization, but Vivian won't tell us which it is.
The first video of Motaz Azaiza, as to be expected from a troon obsessed with femininity, that Vivian has chosen to present is this:
A young girl named "Rose" has salvaged her make-up set from the ruins of her house and proceeds to put some make-up onto Azaiza. Their kinship or relationship is not explained. Vivian, a troon who aggressively opposes the family structure, doesn't see the point of explaining what the relationship between these two people is.
Then he cuts to a video from his "favourite" - because sexist troons always have favourites - Bisan Owda, a war correspondent for Al Jazeera, Al Arabiya and other Arabic mainstream media. Bisan is introduced in a stereotypically orientalist fashion, through a series of seductive poses of her in a bordeaux red dress, followed by a video of her before the war at a Ghazan beach. Anyone even passingly familiar with orientalist art criticism will recognize the ages-old stereotypes put to work here. Once again, Vivian does not bother to identify her institutional affiliations and neither does he identify her as a war correspondent for the Arabic MSM. This is a young secular muslim woman who I am pretty sure would be mortified to have her footage be associated with a porno troon like Vivian IRL. The reason why media foreground her is because she doesn't wear a veil and is therefor considered to be more relatable to Western audiences. Tellingly, almost none of the muslim women that Bisan interviews in her views are "unveiled" like herself, as if to highlight this difference that makes her more palatable to Western audiences than herself.
In his usual media critiques on his Genderweird podcast, Vivian has a tendency to assign assumed queerness, homosexuality or transgenderism onto film people - directors, actresses, authors - who have made it abundantly clear that they do not consider themselves a member of the LGBT. Vivian, who insists we should all care about his self-ID, doesn't give a shit about these people's identification as straight people, and will refer to them as if they were already a member of the LGBT. Vivian will thus assign gayness or transness onto straight people in media on the basis of the most ridiculous criteria, often for no other reason than the fact that he happens to like their media output, which in his crazy self-referential solipsism must mean they are trans just like him, because how could a troon ever related to a movie by a straight man (perhaps because he too is a straight man? Just a thought). Given this persistent tendency to mis-identify people on his part, I am pretty sure that Vivian secretly fantasizes that his "favourite" Bisan is a closeted lesbian too - which would definitely explain the seductive poses he used to introduce her - but for some reason he refrains from painting Bisan with a gay brush like he otherwise does to everyone else. One has to wonder why Vivian all of a sudden felt the need to restrain himself in this particular instance.
The video of Bisan at the beach is abruptly cut to introduce Ismail al-Dahdouh. He too is wearing a vest with "PRESS" on his chest in his avatar picture, suggesting that he too is a mainstream journalist, but again, Vivian does not identify or care about his institutional affiliations.
The subsequent pre-war video of Ismail al-Dahdouh with a young boy wearing a similar suit as himself becomes frankly perverse at the hands of Vivian.
You cannot allow someone like Vivian - who openly advocates for EPE and openly expressed his views that there is nothing wrong with incest - to appropriate such footage without the inevitable connotations. The implied meaning of this footage cannot be heterosexual or familiar, because, again, as a radical tranarchist Vivian has openly expressed his contempt for the heterosexual family with all his being, and claims that his very existence as a radical leftist troon is meant to be an affront to the family. Given his intense and repeatedly expressed hatred of heterosexual families (even accusing homosexuals of wanting to assimilate, simply for wanting what almost everyone else wants, to raise families), why would Vivian appropriate an image of a man walking hand in hand with a young boy? Because a troon looks at this otherwise wholesome image with an evil eye, and sees the same homosexuality he claims to see everywhere else.
The next one to be appropriated is Saleh al-Jafarawi, the only person who is not wearing a "PRESS" pass in their avatar. To background information whatsoever. The video of al-Jafarawi is of him at celebration for new students at his University. The films an audience of students singing together, but the song they are singing is not identified, nor translated.
Hind Khoudary I personally recognize as a war correspondent for Al Jazeera, as I have seen several of her news items by now.
Once again, Vivian refuses to identify this woman as an Al Jazeera journalist. Instead, Vivian opts to identify her by her perceived mental illness, as detailed in this update:
Sometimes it feels like there's a hair between me and madness. Hair so delicat, any event can cut it. In my head there is a talkative person who doesn't keep quiet and doesn't listen, he talks day and night, even while sleeping, he doesn't stop talking. And that all I wish would be cut off, shut up, shut up, killed, it does not matter that it is cut off. I want life inside my body at least quietly..
I hate chatter and I hate high, low, medium voices and the best stillness.. I didn't know before that a life like this is required us to put up with all this noise.
So why did Vivian choose to highlight this particular update, as the most representative introduction to Khoudary? I am guessing it's because of the use of the pronoun "he" when Khoudary refers to her inner dialogue, and the subsequent repetition of "cut off". I am also guessing that this is the result of Vivian, who doesn't know Arabic, using Google Translate to auto-translate these updates. As someone familiar with a couple of foreign languages myself, I know how unreliable Google Translate is when it comes to gendered languages. I also know that a lot of gendered languages automatically default to the masculine form in a lot of cases. Vivian, who AFAIK doesn't know any foreign languages at all, no doubt took the "he" in the above update to mean that Hind Khoudary is secretly a TIF and is suffering from gender dysphoria due to not being able to express the inner man hiding inside of her, and not being able to "cut off" her breasts, which mutilation of the female body for some reason really excites TIMs like Vivians. But here again, Vivian somehow restrained himself from engaging in the usual misidentification of straight people as trans that he usually excells in. Though Vivian obviously knows that his fellow troons will read the included update as implied, namely to mean that Hind Khoudary is secretly a transguy and #OneOfUs. This peculiar update - because why would you choose a post about mental illness to introduce someoen - was thus included for no other reason than as a wink-wink to Vivian's fellow troons. I shouldn't have to explain how disgustingly appropriationist this is. In the subsequent video, Hind Khoudary is shown doing what only a true TIF could do: embroidery.
Next is Mohamed al-Masri. He too in his avatar is clearly shown to be a war correspondent, but Vivian won't identify him as such.
In the pre-war video, al-Masri is shown on the beach with a friend, but Vivian's evil eye once again suggests that there is someothing homoerotic about this image. There really isn't, but Vivian's fellow troons will read it as implied, with an equally evil eye.
Next is Ali Jadallah. Vivian again doesn't explain who this is, but the accompanying picture suggests that this person is a professional photographer. A subsequent video is of an Israeli airstrike in Ghaza in August of 2022.
Plestia Alaqad is another person I recognize from Al Jazeera, but she, unlike all the others, was able to escape Ghaza thanks to having family abroad. You can see in someone like Plestia why all these people who repeatedly say they hate the West and want to kill us all, nevertheless all want to come to the West and infiltrate the West, so they have a place to escape to whenever they fuck back up at home. They should be forced to stay put and deal with the mess they've made. Plestia was lucky, she got out.
Vivian, who is a pathological narcissist, included this update:
Self love isn't selfish but necessary
It goes without saying that a pathological narcissist would identify with statement from a somewhat vain young woman.
The subsequent video is of Plestia modeling, but Vivian is looking at this with an evil eye and doesn't understad that this footage is meant as an advertisement to sell clothes to Palestinian women. Vivian views this footage as the closest equivalent of a thirst trap, in a hypermasculine chauvinistic Islamist society where women are expected to be modest and aren't allowed to be thirst traps.
Doaa al-Baz is another war correpondent, but Vivian again won't identify her institutional affiliations.
Hamza al-Dahdouh is one of Al Jazeera journalist and media personality Wael Dahdouh's multiple children who died during the war. He is followed by his father, whom Vivian doesn't bother to identify as one of the most widely recognizable veteran war journalists of Al Jazeera.
It's only after this 10 minute long introduction of all the characters that the actual compilation starts. As to be expected from a terrorism apologist like Vivian, the compilation doesn't start with any documented responses from any of these people to the Oct 7th attacks by Hamas. We do not get to see whether any of them condemned the massacres, or if they openly praised Hamas terrorists for mass-murdering Dzooz. We aren't told if any of these people oppose Hamas, had ever been to Israel or if they had any Dzooish friends.
The initial footage is of people filming the IDF's air raids from their own homes and realizing that this time it isn't business as usual, this time Israel really means business.
There is a lot of untranslated footage. Vivian could've asked an Arab troon to help him translate and subtitle everything, but then again, I guess he couldn't find an Arab troon, LMAO! Or a troon who has studied foreign languages for that matter.
It's at 25:37 that we finally see some footage from Oct 7... and it's from Hamza Dahdooh gloating over the now widely seen smartphone footage of festival goers running amongst abandoned cars, fleeing on foot from the Hamas terrorists:
"The settlers escaping from the Ghaza Strip", he says, falsely implying that the festival that Hamas attacked took place within the Ghaza strip, when it was outside of a Kibbutz that was outside of the Ghaza strip. Terrorism apologists like Novara Media on Youtube implied that the festival goers had it coming because they they had the nerve to party
"within hearing distance" of the Ghaza strip, so they all deserved to die according to Novara Media. Again, Hamza Dahdooh was later killed by the IDF, so I guess he enjoyed this brief moment gloating at terrorism before the reckoning. I remember Al Jazeera made a huge deal out of his death when it happened, but we were never told that this man was a "journalist" who openly gloated over dead Dzooz at a festival. As many within Israel pointed out, the Dzooz who attended that festival were some of the most progressive, passifistic Dzooz in Israel, the kind of people who idly hoped for peace with the Palestinians, only to pay for their peace politics with their lives, because the other side doesn't want peace, only war and terrorism.
At 26:00 Vivian highlights an airstrike on a residential building (Burj Al-Aklouk) that instantly collapses, and all I can think to myself is... has this millennial POS never seen any footage of the twin towers collapsing in NYC after 9/11? How the fuck can you make an intro, lecturing your American viewers that they've supposedly
"never seen anything like this outside of Hollywood action movies", knowing that at least some of them were compos mentis teenagers or adults in 2001? Those of us who were adults in 2001 are already long desensitized to such footage, not because of Hollywood action movies but because of 9/11. You ignorant millennial dumbfuck. You literally have no fucking idea how planes plunging into the twin towers affected the whole Western hemisphere when it happened, how this footage was on repeat on CNN for a whole month, filmed from multiple angles, with more and more home movies of the terrorist attack being submitted to CNN and broadcast. How dare you lecture me and my fellow Gen Xer on how we've only seen shit like this in the movies. That's YOU and your fellow dumbfuck millenial snowflakes, Vivian, not us.
At 42:00 there's a video of a girl saying she wants Hamas to come and protect her from the IDF. This is how they indoctrinate and brainwash their children with antisemitism when they're still toddlers.
47:00 And these people just never fail to disgust me to the core of my being with their indoctrinated casual sexism. This is a shot where a woman is crying in the hands of a nurse because she lost some of her family members or something. Vivian doesn't bother to explain what is actually happening here, he thinks such images are legible in and of themselves due to the drama, but they're really not, and he clearly doesn't give a fuck to find out what is actually happening here, happy as he is to weaponize such images for the sake of pure melodrama. This motherfucker walks up to to the crying woman and pulls her hijab over her face, because it's slipping off and he couldn't stand the sight of a woman's natural hair. This woman is crying over her dead family and all this motherfucker cares for is that her hair is showing. He has a right to do this to a crying woman, because he's an Islamist man in an Islamist society that allows him to treat women like this. How can I ever feel sorry for these fucking people?
49:35 Plestia is being interviewed on GBNews, where she lies and claims that
"This wasn't started by Hamas"... except it was. If Oct 7th had never happened, none of this would've happened. Hamas chose to start a war they knew they couldn't win, because Iran paid them to do so. This is what you get for being an Iranian terrorism proxy instead of a country.
By day 3 there are a lot of pictures and videos of crying women, men saving their multitude of babies from collapsed buildings, etc. I can't help but laugh at the fact that this footage was put together by an American troon who has previously declared himself to be an enemy of heteronormativity and the concept of the family by virtue of his gooning subsistence. If you hate heterosexual families so much Vivian, shouldn't you delight in the sight of watching them fall apart under the weight of war? Why does this footage make you cry, when this is literally what you and fellow troons want to do to heterosexual families, destroy them and drive them apart? By your own demented ideology, you should be glad that these people have lost their families and their superstraight heterosexual procreation was all for nothing. Isn't this exactly what you and your fellow coomer troons are supposed to represent, the utter futility of this procreative excercise? The sight of a destroyed family should thus fill you with glee and pleasure. I will truly never understand these troons. Faced with the very chaos and mayhem they openly advocate for, they just break down crying. Pathetic. If you're gonna be the villain of heterosexuality, be a villain all the way. Don't expect me to feel sorry for you when you get the feelz and "cry at dead babies", when that's literally what you said you want to do to heterosexual American families:
There is a ton of untranslated footage that is included purely for melodramatic shockvalue. The compilation ends without any credits, and without a warning that there are more videos to come in this series. It's basically someone who trauma-dumped his folder of downloaded social media updates into Premiere and called it a "documentary".
And again, none of these people are gay, they live in a society where gay doesn't exist. If any gay does appear, they throw it off a roof. If Vivian went to Ghaza and began telling them to suck his girldique for not seeing him as a woman, they would instantly call in a couple of Hamas guys to throw him off a roof too. Yet Vivian, who lives safe and sound in the US where his every degenerate whim is allowed and enabled, he insists that he too is subject to a genocide.
It's kinda sad how Vivian is caught between a rock and hard place. The troons and trannie chasers who followed him because of his film reviews only want to see Vivian's videos to watch him talk about his gurldique and all the /r/neovaginadistarters he's poked during the drug-fueled orgies with the trans sex cult that ended up raping him. On the other hand, the pro-Palestine activist community that he's trying to reach out to with his Instagram update compilations, they probably think he's just a gross mentally ill porno troon and want nothing to do with him. The trans community is thus like a cage for Vivian. Every time he wants to do something that has nothing to do with being trans, no one is interested.
If anyone feels the need to bore themselves with the rest of these endless compilations, they're all in Vivian's playlist titled
"The Holocaust Is Streaming Live! (Palestine videos)"
And for those of you who think I was exaggerating when I said that there is a connection between HRT and Palestine Derangement Syndrome in troons:
