@BrotherAlameen
You will never be a real fed. You have no badge, you have no gun, you have no back up. You are a homosexual man twisted by drugs and schizophrenia into a crude mockery of a hacker vigilante.
All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your parents are disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your ghoulish behavior behind closed doors.
Everyone is utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed mankind to sniff out when someone is butthurt with incredible efficiency. Even parody accounts who “larp” are at least funny and gimmicky to most people. Your try hard stalking is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get a retarded guy to go along with you, he’ll turn tail and bolt the second he sees the failure of your autistic, pathetic personal army request.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your real name, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a civilian is buried there. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably not a fed.
This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.