Refusing to learn and change: Vivian Strange re-posts a three year old video about Homestuck author Andrew Hussie being a "reluctant cult leader" and says: "See? That was about me! I was right all along!" (You're not Andrew Hussie, you will never write something like Homestuck) - Oh, and here's the latest GoFundMe scam! - Using geopolitics as an excuse to continue being an abusive creep: "You, my best friends that I've abused and hurt, you just don't matter before these millions of dead people over there"
Remember him looking all spooky on Instagram threatening a grand reveal, saying
"see you 48 hours"?
Vivian just re-posted his first ever Youtube video from 2021 on Homestuck, with some introductory text at the beginning where he's once again e-begging and perpetrating yet another GFM scam:
Homestuck, Psycholonials, and "Reluctant Cult Leaders"
This video was originally titled
"Homestuck, Andrew Hussie, and the Cult of Individualism", but instead of just linking to the original, Vivian re-uploaded it wholesale with the added GoFundMe scam in the intro so he would have to record a separate video.
Here is the e-begging text at the beginning of the video, where he promises to post the DARVO video at some point in the future, claiming he can't do it right now because he's
"very sick":
hi strangers.
it's vivivan.
i'm not doing well rn.
don't worry.
i will address the elephant in the room.
soon. but not right now.
right now, I'm very sick.
my wife and i are getting evicted.
so we have more important things
to focus on at this point in time
however, on a whim, I recently rewatched
the first video I uploaded to this channel on Nov 19, 2021.
of course, it was a homestuck video.
turns out that all i want to say to
anyone on youtube right now...
... was already said.
three years ago.
at the beginning.
back when i called myself
"mys. maya"
what maya says in this video is exactly
what i needed to hear
and it's exactly what i think everyone
watching needs to hear right now.
i hope it helps.
oh yeah, re: my family getting evicted
if you want to help us out, please consider
donating to our gofundme
[some scam fraud grift bullshit]
"Right now, I'm very sick", clearly you're not sick enough to be posting your V for Vendetta LARP pics on Instagram the other day, together with that picture of your smoldering bellend.
Vivian's
"Strange Days" series was originally called
"Deviant Days" in 2021. He also called himself
"Mys Maya" (after the late experimental filmmaker Maya Deren, someone Vivian worships despite the fact that he himself has never actually made a single experimental film). I don't know what the reason was for the name change. Maybe Vivian suffers from multiple personality disorder due to his schizophrenia or something. Judging from these early videos, his "Vivian" persona is a little different from "Maya". Maya is more soft-spoken and emotional, whereas "Vivian" is more cranky, combative and angry. We can only guess what Vivian as "Dori" or Vivian as "Zelda" must've been like (read: pretty much the same, he was alienating all his friends back then as well. Vivian just goes from social circle to social circle, leaving a trail of destroyed relationships behind him.)
"I'm willing to be as real with y'all as possible, and not act like a fucking narcissistic cult leader", well, too late for that!
Later in this part of the video Vivian literally bothsides what he calls the
"celebrity-worshipper dichotomy", as if there isn't a clear imbalance of power, experience and influence between a seasoned genderfuck who trooned out in 2015 manipulating decade younger babygays into becoming clones of his degenerate self. No, you cannot bothside this, Vivian. These people looked up to you and did what you goaded them into doing, because you explicitly positioned yourself as an ambassador for queerness. You weren't a "reluctant cult leader", you proudly trumpeted your "come to me if you want to learn how to be queer" supposedly superior knowledge and experience in your videos and your socials. You wanted to attract a coterie of babygays like Lola, Elaine, Aziel and Jane around you, whom you could bang and turn into aloof, obnoxious drug-addicted copies of yourself.
In this part he's talking about
"unrealistic expectations"... which in this context probably means that expecting Vivian himself to not be rapey towards his best friends is one such an "unrealistic expectation"... well, what can I say... that much is clear now.
What Vivian is trying to do with reposting this three year old Homestuck video is a number of things:
- He's pulling a Marilyn Manson:
"It wasn't me you were communicating with but MY ONLINE PERSONA. It wasn't Brian Warner you were talking to, you were talking to Marilyn Manson. You weren't talking to Vivian Zelda Strong, you were talking to Vivian Strange. I didn't say these nasty things to you or about you, I didn't do these nasty boundary violating things to you. My online alter ego did, Vivian Strange did. You are the one at fault for agreeing to have a parasocial cult-of-personality relationship with my online alter ego."
- Comparing himself to Andrew Hussie, the author of a unique work of art loved by many, when Vivian himself has never autored a unique work of art loved by many, and only ever comments on other people's work. Mind you, Vivian refers to himself as an "artist" in this video, when at that point in 2021 no one even knew what the hell Vivian alleged art actually was, IIRC
Vivian referred to himself as "a painter" at the beginning of this other early video, but I've never seen any of his alleged paintings either. Since then, we found out that Vivian's only "art" is him constantly bitching and raging about other people's artworks and how murderously envious he is of their successes. Elaine was so right when he wrote in Xitter that "a scam artist is the only kind of artist Vivian will ever be", but Vivian always wanted to convince people otherwise, not by actually doing the work but primarily through coattail riding and fame-by-association. Lola specifically stated in her testimony that she struck up a friendship with Vivian because she had had negative experiences in the past trying to be friends with her fans, and she saw Vivian as a fellow content creator she could befriend and talk to IRL.
- He retroactively devalues his best friends from friends and potential sex partners (as this was always his intent, he always intended to bang all these people), to the lower status of mere "fans" who were way too over the hills for him because they were stanning him too hard. (You guys who posted the Google Doc, you should've disclosed whether it was you who approached Vivian first, or the other way around, because I am willing to bet that in every single one of these cases, it was Vivian who reached out first.)
- Vivian pretends that he never really wanted to manipulate and have control over these people, but he only "reluctantly" adopted the mantle of "cult leader" that these people forced upon him. Vivian could've simply said:
"No, I can't help you figure out queerness, you have to figure out on your own" and walked away, but no, these pesky insistent people just had to make him into their cult leader when he really didn't want to.
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"Don't you know the world is on fire?!", once again Vivian is using geopolitics as an excuse to be rapey towards his own friends, to diminish their hurt by making it seem insignificant when held against greater evils. You know what Vivian? You being homeless and dying in the snow doesn't seem that much of a big deal either before millions of people dying "over there". See what how that kind of grotesque callousness works the other way around too?
Here's the thing Vivian: you recorded this video about internet celebrities becoming "reluctant cult leaders" years before your best friends accused you of actually behaving like a wannabe cult leader. You want us in the present to look at one of your past, entirely theorical takes on a topic that you've now experienced IRL, and to conclude that your theoretical take completely matches your present IRL experience. It really doesn't. All you've done is effectively debunked your own hypothesis. All it does is show how wrong you were 3 years ago, to even think that you could pull this off, this "reluctant cult leader" bullshit, and get away with it under the guise of wanting to set up a
"rainbow coalition". You neglect the fact that sexual abuse is endemic in these activist communities as well (I hope Lola, Jane, Elaine and Aziel will have a look at this zine, because this was written by their fellow leftists):
The Revolution Starts At Home - Confronting Partner Abuse in Activist Communities
If anything, this 3 year old video shows prior intent on your part to become that cult leader person, not "reluctance". You insist that Andrew Hussie is only a "reluctant cult leader", but then proceed to hide this comment arguing that Andrew Hussie too exploited his position to gain access to "barely legals", one of which he married:
To which comment you replied once again weaponizing geopolitics to justify being an abusive creep towards the people you called your best friends:
It's very clear from the Google Doc testimonies that you relished your ability to push and goad people over the internet to do things that went against their nature. Even if you were fully convinced that Tali and Lola were badly matched for whatever reason, you could've waited for Lola to figure this out on her own. Though I'm pretty sure that if Tali had told you that he's totally OK with you and him part-timing Lola, you'd be out there praising Tali to high heavens for being so open-minded and practical about his relationship.
In this old video you try to "bothside" the issue, saying that worshippers are just as guilty for turning the cult-leader into a powerful figure as the cult leader is for desiring that role. You are conveniently neglecting the fact that the people you manipulated were, in a least 3 cases, years younger than you and were looking up at you because they knew they were nowhere near as experienced as you claim to be (I still have my doubts about that seeing how awkward and cringe you were around Lola IRL). Even Jane looked up at you because he had only recently trooned out whereas you have been trans for 8 years longer than him, so even Jane expected you to be the more experienced person between them. You cannot "bothside" this because in each case you were the older, more experienced person in these people's eyes. The power imbalance was always in your favour.
Now, you might protest that this wasn't the case with Lola because she was the bigger, more succesful Youtuber - neglecting the fact that Lola was sick at the time, and that she specifically points out in her testimony that it was her being at home sick that gave you all this access to her. In Lola's case, you tried to use the fact that she was the bigger, better connected Youtuber to gain access to Nyk. Lola might have not seen this coming at the time, but I looking at this from my vantage point figured this was your plan all along, I posted about just how crazy with Nyk you were at the time here. You even took down the Livestream where you said you were sure that Nyk is "a bottom". (FYI and since you really like TMI - and for the benefit of everyone else hate-lurking along - Nyk does use his penis during sex, he just doesn't like PiV. Kinda surprised Lola never told you this, but I guess she's polite and discreet like that, two words missing from your dictionary. Go watch the Livestreams I posted on KF for years where Nyk himself admits he does, albeit
"reluctantly", to use his and your term. You Cluster B narcs really love to lie and say you only do things
"reluctantly" when it's obvious to everyone you're doing them intentionally and enthusiastically.). I have to wonder now if you ever really gave a fuck about Lola, or if you merely saw her as someone who could get you laid and connected. Even if you did see Lola as nothing more than an asset that was gonna help you gain access to Nyk, you did not treat your asset very well.
If your verdict of this video 3 years onward is
"Yeah, I was right all along, romance sucks, I should continue being a homewrecker trying to break up couples and pit them against each other to make them become disillusioned about their coupledom so they can reach Full Queerdom", then you literally haven't learned anything from your experience of how your entirely theoretical ideas about non-monogamy actually panned out IRL.
This insistence on your part that you were right all along only signals one thing: you are the one who is immature and refusing to grow, learn and change. Your extreme anti-monogamy stance is making you a threat to anyone who is in a couple and all you do is relish being a threat to them. Instead of seeking out other singles like yourself - which I guess is getting harder and harder for you to do, as more of your peers are settling in couples as they get older, even the LGBT ones - you seem to get off on deliberately seeking out couples and breaking them up just to teach them a hard lesson about how delusional they are in their state of romantic bliss. You say that people shouldn't be atomized in couples, but you are the one who is atomizing people by trying to break them up and make them jaded about romance. Just because you can't have any romance of your own, no one else should either. Everyone else should be miserable just because you are.
I know you're from a broken home, so I have to ask whether this sadistic obsession you have with breaking up couples to teach them a lesson about non-monogamy, is actually you attempting to reproduce your parent's separation over and over in others, as a constant reminder that monogamy is doomed to fail - when all you're doing is proving the opposite, that non-monogamy is doomed to fail because no one is as aloof about sex as you insist you are. You've overshared endlessly about your degeneracy but for some reason you've never talked about this on a Livestream ever, only casually mentioning that your parents had you when they were very young and are since separated, so I figured this is a very deep wound in your psyche that you refuse to examine for fear of what it might reveal about your irrational, all-consuming rage towards monogamous couples and romance. Vivian, just because your parents broke up doesn't mean that romance is a lie or that monogamy is always doomed to fail. Just because you cannot make these things work in your own wretched life, doesn't mean they can't work for others. You think you're right but you are wrong and you know it. You see happy couples all around and all you want to do is destroy them, just to feel better about your own lonely misery.
In the mean time, just as you try and fail to deny everyone else their romantic lives, you wallow in imaginary limerent romances in your head with Bisan Owda, someone who would for sure be disgusted with you and the way you treat your closest friends, using your obsession with her as an excuse to neglect your IRL relationships. You know that Bisan has lost a lot of her friends during the war, so she would be the first to tell you how important it is to cherish your friends while they are still around. You on the other hand treat your friends as mere disposable "playthings" (the term Elaine used to describe your treatment of Jane), empty vessels you can just pour your demented ideas into. You cannot weaponize a war in another part of the world that doesn't directly affect you as an excuse to be an asshole towards your actual friends. I know this all would make Bisan reject you and avoid you if she learned this about you, no matter how many times you insist you're her biggest supporter and how you gloating at her suffering for over a year has supposedly changed you for the better. You still don't have your priorities in order.
liberation and documenting was incredibly powerful to me. Thankfully, she’s far from the only source of information about Palestine. 
thats the opposite of what happened to you
@SubstanceIs Nov 6