Everyone always cross-posts and re-posts the Blockland staledox ad nauseam, but here are some latter chatlogs between Stockings and Null that I think not enough people have read. Stockings herself shared these log in 2013:
Stocking 09/11/13(Sat)00:14 No. 29892 [Edit]
>>29716
As someone who's known Null for years, you sound way too much like him to not actually be him.
Yeah I'll admit it was a bit crazy readding him and even talking to him after the threats he made. He's extremely bipolar, and he'd act extremely nice and would be actually amicable and fun to talk to, and then he'd explode into mass-murderer rants or yell very loudly through text that nobody loves him. I considered him a friend, and I guess I just forgave his weird outbursts because of that. He'd remove me at least once a week, and then readd me a couple days later. Sometimes I'd just readd him on my own, especially when he'd start telling everybody he knew that he was going to kill himself.
His life story is just so sad it's hard not to feel a tiny bit sorry for him. He was morbidly obese in school and ended up getting bullied so bad he dropped out before he could finish. Even on Blockland Forums, the only community he was ever a part of, he was hated and ridiculed on a regular basis by pretty much everyone. He's in his 20s and has yet to have his first kiss. He says things like this all the time:
Joshua: I have it
Joshua: chemical castration.
Joshua: Sex and romance and love
Joshua: total
Joshua: frusterations
Joshua: I don't care about sex
Joshua: Women piss me off
Joshua: and love doesn't exist
Joshua: If I castrate myself
Joshua: I'm done
Joshua: I don't need it
Joshua: I can just
Joshua: enjoy life
Joshua: So that's it
Joshua: Cocaine and intense work outs + chemical castration
Joshua: I've cracked the code
I dont think it was that crazy to think he'd actually kill himself or hurt somebody if I really cut off all contact with him. He apologized on multiple occasions for what he said and I chalked it up to his bipolar disorder and stayed friendly. It wasn't until the end of our friendship he started going batshit over sex and instead of threatening to rape me, he'd beg me for sex and then preach about how the only reason I wouldn't have sex with him is because I'm a gross prude or huge bitch.
Funniest part about it is how he'd then complain how I thought all he wanted was sex, and how he was actually after so much more than that. I think this chatlog illustrates that point rather well:
12:38 AM - Joshua: I think
12:38 AM - Joshua: you should say something sexy
12:38 AM - Joshua: you don't say enough sexy things
12:38 AM - Joshua: that should change
12:38 AM - Saria: that's a lotta pressure :o
12:38 AM - Joshua: no excuses
12:39 AM - Joshua: like, right now I'm kinda tired. Something broke at work and I have a lot to do tomorrow.
12:39 AM - Joshua: What would you do for me?
12:39 AM - Saria: what do you mean?
12:40 AM - Joshua: what do you think I mean
12:41 AM - Joshua: sigh.
12:41 AM - Saria: i feel uncomfortable...
12:41 AM - Joshua: whatever then.
12:41 AM - Joshua: im going to bed
12:41 AM - Joshua: midnight
12:42 AM - Saria: might be best... goodnight
12:42 AM - Joshua: yeah, i dont
12:42 AM - Joshua: like
12:42 AM - Joshua: I can't get you to do anything
12:42 AM - Joshua: frustrating.
12:42 AM - Joshua: "blowjob" or something makes you uncomfortable
12:43 AM - Joshua: I thought this time would be different
12:43 AM - Joshua: I thought you'd be open to things that were actually fun
12:43 AM - Joshua: you're just using me for fucking chitchat fodder
12:43 AM - Saria: youre asking me to talk dirty to you :c
12:44 AM - Joshua: I should have known things wouldn't have changed.
12:49 AM - Joshua: talking to you is humiliating
12:49 AM - Joshua: I'm so furious right now
12:49 AM - Saria: y
12:49 AM - Joshua: because I try to be cool with you and you string me along
12:49 AM - Joshua: nothing has changed
12:50 AM - Joshua: you're not worth my time
12:50 AM - Saria: i dont talk dirty to anyone Y~Y
12:50 AM - Joshua: and that's why you're alone
12:50 AM - Saria: lol
12:50 AM - Joshua: i'm removing you, sorry
12:50 AM - Joshua: I can't deal with this shit
12:50 AM - Saria: dont... ._.
12:50 AM - Joshua: you make me feel like shit
12:50 AM - Joshua: you realize that
12:50 AM - Joshua: right
12:50 AM - Joshua: acknowledge it
12:50 AM - Joshua: that you make me feel like shit
12:50 AM - Saria: yeah but i make you happy and a laugh a whole lot more
12:51 AM - Joshua: here's the deal
12:51 AM - Joshua: long-term I want a relationship with you
12:51 AM - Joshua: I want to have sex with you
12:51 AM - Joshua: if you're not open to that
12:51 AM - Joshua: let me know
12:51 AM - Joshua: so I can look elsewhere
12:51 AM - Joshua: thanks
12:51 AM - Joshua: see that's what normal, non-sociopathic women do
12:51 AM - Joshua: when they realize that a guy likes them that they don't like
12:51 AM - Joshua: you're a fucking broken person
12:51 AM - Joshua: you love this attention
12:51 AM - Joshua: especially when you don't recriprocate it
12:52 AM - Saria: i couldnt date you if i cant even consider you a friend :\
12:52 AM - Joshua: you don't even consider me a friend? wtf
12:52 AM - Saria: you dont consider me a friend
12:52 AM - Joshua: wtf are you smoking lady
12:52 AM - Joshua: I told you I don't want to be just friends
12:52 AM - Saria: you just want sexual things ._.
12:53 AM - Joshua: NO I DON'T
12:53 AM - Joshua: You said the last thing LAST YEAR
12:53 AM - Joshua: holy shit
12:53 AM - Joshua: NOTHING I DO FOR YOU
12:53 AM - Joshua: MATTERS TO YOU
12:53 AM - Joshua: No matter how long we talk
12:53 AM - Joshua: games we play
12:53 AM - Joshua: what I give to you
12:53 AM - Joshua: what I say to you
12:53 AM - Saria: i wont have sex with you?
12:53 AM - Joshua: you just see me as a sexual predator
12:53 AM - Joshua: yeah, i'm sorry
12:53 AM - Joshua: you're just
12:53 AM - Joshua: completely insane
12:53 AM - Joshua: goodbye
12:53 AM - Saria: ...
Joshua is now Offline.
That's really all I have to say about him to be honest. I don't hate the guy. He's a beta tryhard mysoginist to the nth degree, and totally crazy, but I think we're all a bit fucked in the head somewhere.
As for this description that Stockings offered of Null's character,
"He's extremely bipolar, and he'd act extremely nice and would be actually amicable and fun to talk to, and then he'd explode into mass-murderer rants", this is what Null is doing to Slav right now. He was friendly to Slav for weeks while he was on the Polish ISP that Slav had recommended, but now that Null no longer needs Slav he's verbally abusive to him. Like it's somehow Slav's fault that it didn't work out with the Polish ISP.
More lubsick teenage Null logs from Stockings:
Stocking 09/11/13(Sat)19:49 No. 29975 [Edit]
>>29916
Steam doesn't save logs, but I found a couple funny tidbits through logs that I pm'd to people.
4:07 AM - Joshua: and fuck you. whenever I think about something really affectionate involving sex I get panic attacks
4:08 AM - Joshua: like, the area right above my crotch, where my abdomen and groin meet
4:08 AM - Joshua: whenever I think about cuddling and the like
4:08 AM - Joshua: it feels like I'm being stabbed there
4:08 AM - Starberry Burst: why what
4:08 AM - Joshua: I don't even know how to handle the idea of affection
4:08 AM - Joshua: I've been astranged from cuddling my entire life
4:08 AM - Joshua: It actually hurts me to contemplate some girl crawling up next to me in bed and wrapping her arms around me
4:08 AM - Joshua: jesus fucking christ the pain gets so bad it makes me buckle if I'm standing
06:35 p.m. - Joshua: I do believe that women, more than anything, follow their own interests and are totally unempthatetic to yours truly, but that's not because they're out tog et me
06:35 p.m. - Joshua: simply because they're monsters
06:35 p.m. - Joshua: the vast majority of them, and at least all of the ones I've spoken to.
06:35 p.m. - Joshua: They react positively to being treated negatively.
5:45 AM - Joshua: who bought you saints row 2.
5:45 AM - Joshua: hahahaha
5:45 AM - Joshua: what a loser
5:45 AM - Canoness Adrastia: otis
5:45 AM - Joshua: did you tell him to do it fgt
5:45 AM - Canoness Adrastia: nah
5:45 AM - Joshua: aww, you're so sweet.
5:45 AM - Joshua: Too kind for such worthless fools.
5:46 AM - Canoness Adrastia: indeed
5:46 AM - Canoness Adrastia: im pretty much perfect
5:46 AM - Joshua: I can't imagine a nicer ass on a cuter frame.
5:46 AM - Joshua: I mean, a sweet personality for a kinder soul~~
5:46 AM - Joshua: sweeter*
5:48 AM - Joshua: oh sorry
5:48 AM - Joshua: I was trying to imitate Nick :3
5:48 AM - Joshua: Confidence, n all that jazz
5:49 AM - Canoness Adrastia: nick does not suck up in the slightest
5:49 AM - Canoness Adrastia: he picks on me
5:49 AM - Joshua: ew
5:49 AM - Joshua: please
5:49 AM - Joshua: no details or examples
5:49 AM - Joshua: gross
5:49 AM - Canoness Adrastia: you could learn a thing or two
5:50 AM - Joshua: Do not ever
5:50 AM - Joshua: say anything of the like
5:50 AM - Joshua: ever again
5:50 AM - Canoness Adrastia: there is a grey zone between complete brown-nosing
5:50 AM - Canoness Adrastia: and being a total dick
5:50 AM - Joshua: Yes Ma'am.
5:51 AM - Joshua: Okay, so what are my pointers with Ali
5:51 AM - Joshua: Don't let her know I'm sad ever
5:51 AM - Joshua: and
5:51 AM - Joshua: don't be too nice
5:51 AM - Joshua: but don't be mean
5:51 AM - Joshua: got it.
5:52 AM - Joshua: Actually the most depressing thing about this conversation was knowing that I'm second-rate to someone like fucking General Nick.
5:52 AM - Joshua: That alone is a death warrant.
5:53 AM - Canoness Adrastia: jealousy and pessimism
5:53 AM - Canoness Adrastia: define you
5:53 AM - Joshua: I'm jealous in the same sense that if a jewler and a farmer offered a diamond ring and a bag of cow shit (respectively) to a girl as a gift of engagement
5:54 AM - Joshua: and the farmer was chosen over the jewler
5:54 AM - Joshua: the jewler would be somewhat upset
5:54 AM - Joshua: (and you call me unconfident)
Remember everyone, Null is a feminist now. When CPR died, Null reminded everyone of the clip where CPR said that
"women are like dogs", so let's remind ourselves of what Null the Feminist said about women:
06:35 p.m. - Joshua: I do believe that women, more than anything, follow their own interests and are totally unempthatetic to yours truly, but that's not because they're out tog et me
06:35 p.m. - Joshua: simply because they're monsters
06:35 p.m. - Joshua: the vast majority of them, and at least all of the ones I've spoken to.
06:35 p.m. - Joshua: They react positively to being treated negatively.
All you KF TERFs who sit there gushing at this
"beta tryhard mysoginist to the nth degree, and totally crazy, but I think we're all a bit fucked in the head somewhere" whenever he puts up that Suffragette hamster on the screen, stop being a bunch of stupid women. You know who the fuck this guy is, and you know he's not a feminist.
PS. I'll admit I don't know what the hell
"readding" with a DD means, if this is some weird esoteric IB lingo, please enlighten me.