It could not possibly be more apparent from your interactions with me (almost all of them I didn't ask for) that nobody likes or loves you. You're at best regarded as a creepy amoral weirdo by anyone you meet that doesn't have familial obligations to you. You've made excuses for shit kiwi farms psychos have done that is jaw dropping, all because you crave attention from people you've admitted are ostracized because they are anti-social rejects. You do this because nobody morally stable wants anything to do with you.