(reading from the chat): "Josh, why is your heart so black with hate?". I don't know, I try to be a Positive Polly but sometimes I'm a Negative Nancy. What really upsets me is that, because of my, my, my stance, I have a, I believe I have a very thorough and well-defined series of things that I am not willing to do. And as a result, I have a very difficult time making allies. People have very, very limited interest in helping me, in any way, shape or form because I can't promise them anything in return. I don't really, I can't... I, as the administrator of a website that is naturally antagonistic, cannot offer people anything in return for their help. I can't offer them money, cos I don't make money. I can't offer them special favours cos I have none to grant. I can't offer them, you know, long-term peace and prosperity because I bring extraordinary negative attention everywhere I go. And uh, one second [types something], directly associating with me is a bad idea. And that means, uh, because I don't form allies I miss out on opportunities a lot. And that's frustrating because, I witness a LOT. Not just in this particular instance, because I really don't wanna even help Sam Hyde, cos I don't wanna be involved. It would be a huge pain in the ass. But I know people who would and who deserve that kind of business and attention. When I watch stuff like this and I think, like, it really fucking sucks that you see people like Andrew Torba and Graf constantly strike these deals, that they don't deserve. Cos they're insane people. And they are demonstrably, provably unreliable, through the passage of time. And then over months you see them fuck up what they are given. And it's like, I know if someone else had gotten that opportunity they would've handled it better. And I constantly see situations like that unfold, and I think: "That's really unfair.". That's really unfair, and it plays out like that constantly. I'm not saying that [it should be] me! Look, again, I'm not saying that I deserve that. Cos I don't want it. I really do not want to deal with Sam Hyde. But I know people who are and who do. (laughs) Who are fans of Sam Hyde, who are competent to help Sam Hyde. And who don't want to be based, like, based epic Poast Fediverse instance operator person. Who, like, don't care about the publicity. They just do a job. It sucks to see an idiot who is obviously gonna fuck up eventually, because he fucks up all the time. It's like, I [?know people that do this better].
