If you were "nice" or running a "chill community" you would have gained normal posters when you advertised on reddit. You didn't and you wasted your money on that, because everyone can see from a mile away that you're a creepy vindictive sperg who can only attract people who are so amazingly toxic and repulsive they aren't welcome anywhere else. A bunch of psychologically ugly people like the guy whose avatar is my photo and he contributes zilch here beyond posting about me every day. Or the 30+ year old drunk who posts disgusting shock images nobody sane wants to look at. What you think of as "chill" is really just you tolerating people who are wildly sick in the head and not tolerated by anyone else, because you are also sick in the head. At some point you realized your inclusive welcome message was too absurd to keep up, even you don't believe it.
You aren't fooling anyone that you're a kind, anti-racist gentleman. You've been orbiting an explicitly racist website that was responsible for suicides trying to poach its posters for a decade now, because you like nasty, racist stalkers and enjoy their ideas. If you were "kind" or "chill" you'd be off having a normal grandpa life and wouldn't want to associate yourself with a website that the wiki article clearly states has been tied to the deaths of 6 different people.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kiwi_Farms You wouldn't handwave that your moderator was a convicted child abuser and treat it like it's a silly non-issue mistake he made.
The fact is you aren't a likeable, normal guy who other adults trust or want to be around so you're addicted to the disgruntled freaks here pretending they like you. That falls apart the second you do anything that pisses them off and they call you a fat retard. You know that if I show Nick or anyone at the Muslim center any of the bullshit you've been up to they're going to believe me because they don't see you as normal, or "chill" or trustworthy. It's something you're actually deathly worried about which is why you've had multiple meltdowns at me in DM. You're the architect of your own suffering.