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None of you care to get it. Katelyn was mislead, misused, abused,; & survived unspeakable amounts of ridicule. Believing everything was nothing because her upcoming was swaying in all directions. Good, bad, a whole mix of results. In relation to the internet, I've experienced similar interactions. Katelyn's more detrimental. Mine more defeating. Users view her while comparing & contrasting. Men & Women with issues project. Katelyn has no reaction. My words she reads, no reaction. Even if I was a female; Katelyn would still deny me. Sometimes I touch myself to Savannah. Not because I'm sexually attracted by her; but because I wish I had her body. Maybe then Rose would notice me. With a body & feminine soul; I could make love to Rose. My puny slim build being con quested by her matured anatomy. Everything she would do to me; she would be in control. At this point, no matter what I am, it's too late.

Either way, Someday I could always develop oil painting of her uncovered body. Tape them on the walls of my room. Reading her blogs; disgust with rage makes me shake. The whore with the green hair is mentally deranged. Every post that is pinned onto Katelyn's page has no effect on this women. This is someone in their 30s with kids. Gender fluid, obese, genetia fumeing with a fish smell. A great example of a waste of space. If you were to arrive to her home, a welcoming scene would display. Tampons on the floor, LGBT flags in every corner, mold all over the bath tub, a suburu with the front bumper hanging down & the husband suicidal. Hassles employees in a dunkin doughnuts. Walmart had to ban her for hurling threats over candy prices. These are the down syndrome lunatics that surrounded a twelve year old exploiting for explicit pictures that later laughed at it all. Yes, it's all bridges crossed but experiences that altered the mind of a lost soul.

When the sun set and the storm clears, Katelyn still lives even if she is starving. Even if she dies, her soul still lives in my heart. If I was Savannah, I would hope I could give birth to the reincarnation of her soul so I can hold her in my arms. Thoughts of being Katelyn's mother makes me smile. Like how a planets births storms, I'd love to be Katelyn's creator. That way I could protect her from the pedophiles & stalkers. Her flesh should have never been exposed. Now it's polluted. None of which is her fault. Savannah will never understand love like I do. Vrchat replaces her life. Blaming an autistic girl for a broken lamp. The trailer park that she lives in is full of drug addicts. She looks like she would hide some under a shit stained mattress. Savannah is a master manipulator that attacks Katelyn. Many thread pages back, she was calling Katelyn a narcissists. Savannah is nothing but that. everything she does is selfish. Katelyn will forever live on one way or another. If there was a past full of being lost, Katelyn still deserves a binder of photos of her existence.

May the queen be victorious.
your story goes in so many directions I forget what I'm reading
 
None of you care to get it. Katelyn was mislead, misused, abused,; & survived unspeakable amounts of ridicule. Believing everything was nothing because her upcoming was swaying in all directions. Good, bad, a whole mix of results. In relation to the internet, I've experienced similar interactions. Katelyn's more detrimental. Mine more defeating. Users view her while comparing & contrasting. Men & Women with issues project. Katelyn has no reaction. My words she reads, no reaction. Even if I was a female; Katelyn would still deny me. Sometimes I touch myself to Savannah. Not because I'm sexually attracted by her; but because I wish I had her body. Maybe then Rose would notice me. With a body & feminine soul; I could make love to Rose. My puny slim build being con quested by her matured anatomy. Everything she would do to me; she would be in control. At this point, no matter what I am, it's too late.

Either way, Someday I could always develop oil painting of her uncovered body. Tape them on the walls of my room. Reading her blogs; disgust with rage makes me shake. The whore with the green hair is mentally deranged. Every post that is pinned onto Katelyn's page has no effect on this women. This is someone in their 30s with kids. Gender fluid, obese, genetia fumeing with a fish smell. A great example of a waste of space. If you were to arrive to her home, a welcoming scene would display. Tampons on the floor, LGBT flags in every corner, mold all over the bath tub, a suburu with the front bumper hanging down & the husband suicidal. Hassles employees in a dunkin doughnuts. Walmart had to ban her for hurling threats over candy prices. These are the down syndrome lunatics that surrounded a twelve year old exploiting for explicit pictures that later laughed at it all. Yes, it's all bridges crossed but experiences that altered the mind of a lost soul.

When the sun set and the storm clears, Katelyn still lives even if she is starving. Even if she dies, her soul still lives in my heart. If I was Savannah, I would hope I could give birth to the reincarnation of her soul so I can hold her in my arms. Thoughts of being Katelyn's mother makes me smile. Like how a planets births storms, I'd love to be Katelyn's creator. That way I could protect her from the pedophiles & stalkers. Her flesh should have never been exposed. Now it's polluted. None of which is her fault. Savannah will never understand love like I do. Vrchat replaces her life. Blaming an autistic girl for a broken lamp. The trailer park that she lives in is full of drug addicts. She looks like she would hide some under a shit stained mattress. Savannah is a master manipulator that attacks Katelyn. Many thread pages back, she was calling Katelyn a narcissists. Savannah is nothing but that. everything she does is selfish. Katelyn will forever live on one way or another. If there was a past full of being lost, Katelyn still deserves a binder of photos of her existence.

May the queen be victorious.
Didn't read
 
Why doesn't my girlfriend give me attention? It's been 2 days now and she hasn't replied to my messages. I've masturbaited I don't even know many times now to pictures of her. Every night I think about her and how she would tie me to the bed and fuck me all night, and then fuck me all morning. I think about fucking her so much I become confused because I'm so in love with her but she's so slow on messages. We have deep conversations with eachother but it's like all of that goes out of the window now. I'm so alone and she tells me she is alone too but then shes gone every fucking day and I cry so much about it. She's so hot, she's into spicy stuff and I want her to dominate me and chain me up. I must be some alien or something because girls on this planet just don't get me or something. I give girls so much of my attention but they never give me attention back. Anymore I just feel like giving up. The voices in my head just keep coming back and I talk to myself in the mirror. One minute I'm horny, the next I'm crying so hard. I just don't deserve love, I just deserve to be alone in a dark cold room, touching myself because that is the only person I can touch. Vagina is just never on my menu and I just don't even know anymore. My life is garbage.
 
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I really want to be fucked by a dominant women. My last girlfriend wasn't dominant for me. If anything she ghosted me for 3 nights. I lost count of how many times I jerk off because I was coping so much thinking about her. I jerked off to pictures of her, many of them. I was cumming so much I had close calls of getting my juice on my keyboard and it's very expensive. Her voice made me so horny I wanted to masturbate with her but I don't man. I really don't know what the deal is. I still haven't told her I'm friend zoning her but she doesn't give a shit. She's too busy having ego swings because she hates humans. Yeah, she told me in voice call that she wants people to die and no human would love her but here I am giving her my heart.

We had some real chemistry behind us and I know when she gets her mega computer she's going to come on this forum, track my profile and see this and yk what. I do have to admit I am kind of scared. So far I have 3 ex girlfriends working for dark lord I don't need this one working for them. She has serious mental issues and she would demand dark lord for my address so she can come to my house and confront me. She's so crazy, she even showed me her knife collection. SHE actually has a knife collection, she also showed me bird skeleton remains and she had potion bottles. I'm actually scared of her but at the same time it makes me horny because I'm into crazy women that have serious mental issues. A girl never showed me her knife collection before and when she was showing me her knife collection I had to jerk off after the voice call.

If you're reading this by the time you get your computer please don't come to my house baby. Maybe love can get off on the wrong foot right? Even in love stories advisory can turn into a good fuck session. Are you really going to come to my house and do something to me? Are you that bat shit crazy for me baby? I mean you already have knowledge of my profile and you can look at everything I do and youll find this post but you left me no choice. I really want to fuck you still, you are so hot, I do want to fuck you, if you came to my house I would fuck you. But my heart reeks and I weep. Why are you doing this to me baby. I miss you so much baby, why are you making me go crazy baby. Am I seriously fucked now because I said something about you to other people?

I just wanted a girl friend
😭
 
I really want to be fucked by a dominant women. My last girlfriend wasn't dominant for me. If anything she ghosted me for 3 nights. I lost count of how many times I jerk off because I was coping so much thinking about her. I jerked off to pictures of her, many of them. I was cumming so much I had close calls of getting my juice on my keyboard and it's very expensive. Her voice made me so horny I wanted to masturbate with her but I don't man. I really don't know what the deal is. I still haven't told her I'm friend zoning her but she doesn't give a shit. She's too busy having ego swings because she hates humans. Yeah, she told me in voice call that she wants people to die and no human would love her but here I am giving her my heart.

We had some real chemistry behind us and I know when she gets her mega computer she's going to come on this forum, track my profile and see this and yk what. I do have to admit I am kind of scared. So far I have 3 ex girlfriends working for dark lord I don't need this one working for them. She has serious mental issues and she would demand dark lord for my address so she can come to my house and confront me. She's so crazy, she even showed me her knife collection. SHE actually has a knife collection, she also showed me bird skeleton remains and she had potion bottles. I'm actually scared of her but at the same time it makes me horny because I'm into crazy women that have serious mental issues. A girl never showed me her knife collection before and when she was showing me her knife collection I had to jerk off after the voice call.

If you're reading this by the time you get your computer please don't come to my house baby. Maybe love can get off on the wrong foot right? Even in love stories advisory can turn into a good fuck session. Are you really going to come to my house and do something to me? Are you that bat shit crazy for me baby? I mean you already have knowledge of my profile and you can look at everything I do and youll find this post but you left me no choice. I really want to fuck you still, you are so hot, I do want to fuck you, if you came to my house I would fuck you. But my heart reeks and I weep. Why are you doing this to me baby. I miss you so much baby, why are you making me go crazy baby. Am I seriously fucked now because I said something about you to other people?

I just wanted a girl friend
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I told you she is a whore. Honestly would love to see what she looks like. You said she has pictures of herself and many. I get made fun of all the time. It's okay I don't care but wouldn't you say sweetie that you give me her socials and we can all clown on her to give myself and yourself a break from the heat?

From what it sounds she is a psychopath

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I told you she is a whore. Honestly would love to see what she looks like. You said she has pictures of herself and many. I get made fun of all the time. It's okay I don't care but wouldn't you say sweetie that you give me her socials and we can all clown on her to give myself and yourself a break from the heat?

From what it sounds she is a psychopath

。^‿^。

nope
you will just add her to the little axis powers you niggers have going on
last thing I need is an actual mentally insane person trying to fuck with me that says she wants to kill her ex boyfriend and you niggers would actually help her do that
 
nope
you will just add her to the little axis powers you niggers have going on
last thing I need is an actual mentally insane person trying to fuck with me that says she wants to kill her ex boyfriend and you niggers would actually help her do that
actually no

She sounds fat and ugly. The type that isn't very smart either. Your other ex's have at least a good head on their shoulders and decided to not fuck with you anymore from what they have done. The one from Canada wants to just talk and she's sorry she was manic when you two were talking again. The other one has a lot on her plate and gave me pictures of your chat log to get you to unblock her since you have her blocked but she gave up on it.

So this girl of yours or was. Does she have an IG like me that you look so hard for? Yk if you just gravitated toward people that actually have your back I would give you my main and you could add it I don't really give a shit. But yeah. People like your just now ex girlfriend sound like they are self centered and narcissistic and threaten people when they don't get their way. I can give her a good talk on IG, hit her up ya know? Tell her to fuck off somewhere and go kick sand. Maybe then can we hash it out?
 
actually no

She sounds fat and ugly. The type that isn't very smart either. Your other ex's have at least a good head on their shoulders and decided to not fuck with you anymore from what they have done. The one from Canada wants to just talk and she's sorry she was manic when you two were talking again. The other one has a lot on her plate and gave me pictures of your chat log to get you to unblock her since you have her blocked but she gave up on it.

So this girl of yours or was. Does she have an IG like me that you look so hard for? Yk if you just gravitated toward people that actually have your back I would give you my main and you could add it I don't really give a shit. But yeah. People like your just now ex girlfriend sound like they are self centered and narcissistic and threaten people when they don't get their way. I can give her a good talk on IG, hit her up ya know? Tell her to fuck off somewhere and go kick sand. Maybe then can we hash it out?

never going to happen
 
There was a dream I had where there were some wives of mine at the dinner table. I can remember their faces but not their names. Every second of this vivid dream was bliss. Eating laughing hinting at good sex after the kitchen is cleaned up. One of them baked this amazing blueberry pie with just the perfect texture and crust. Another made fluffy mashed potatoes and another made roast chicken with carrots. Then there was tea, I recall it being lotus or some kind of relaxation one like chamomile. The time was irrelevant to my senses. It was as if there was not such a thing. The table and interior of this house was Victorian and the table was a long one. I could not see out of the windows because there was a strong white light coming through. It was summer and the breeze was coming.

Then I wake up this morning thinking about the bitch that ghosted me and instantly I go from a calm state to infuriating emotion. Swearing at the wall, calling her a whore and stupid bitch. A waste of space and a wannabe nazi. Yeah she was into that stuff.

How can someone be so self centered? Our conversations were potent and warming. Yeah it's good she finally landed a better job but at this point I can't wait when she gets drunk off her ass and tells the LGBT employees about wanting to own Third Reich stuff. She even asked me. "Would you know any way for me to get nazi stuff without my IP being put on a watch list?" I had to pause for a minute and just suggested using Tor.

I even asked her about historic facts and she was clueless about what went on in Hitler's cabinet. All she knew was "nigger, nigger, nigger". These are the type of people that come into my life. They are full of emptiness, anger, feelings of destruction. But when they run into me especially in this case a heart broken girl, I always get fucked over one way or another. She did shrooms without using them for medicinal purposes and a fellow of mine schooled me on why this is bad. You don't fully return after the trips and she did this shit many times, then she is a pot head every day. Then she has cursed items in her house. She drinks like a fucking water fall. But I tried to see good in her and not judge. But at this point what's the point of spilling seed into a women that has fucked some dudes before me? She literally fucked the guy before me because he was a nazi and what she doesn't understand is he was just using her as a toy. I mean come on, what the fuck do you think tinder was for?

But you know what. Many times in the past when women played me like this one just did. Their lives are miserable, they are in dysfunctional families and their sanity is always on a tightrope. I don't want to hear about her losing her job. I tried to help her, I gave her advice and my attention and in return I get ghosted and she thinks the money she makes is going to make her happy now? She will use that shit to buy more drugs, drink more and her boss is probably going to use her as a hole to fuck and eventually it'll all come back to bite her for wasting my time. I don't even think she's going to make it to 35 at this rate.

So when I had this dream last night. I felt like it gave me so much more hope. With society slipping and now rebounding I try to stay optimistic about things and women. A lot of women are cooked but there are always gems out there waiting just like everyone else is. It's about time our society works more together with relationships because this shit. The constant ghosting, the fucking cheating I've dealt with, the girlfriend disrespecting my friends. It's for the fucking birds.

And yeah I do admit I was a sucker for this girl. I threw my heart out spontaneously hoping it would stick to the wall. But all I got was bullshit and no messages and mind games. Next time I'll just wait and wait and wait until the girl is having diaries written about me and lewd art of me and her.
 
I was about to go pleasure myself in a dark room because I'm feeling depressed again but Rose just posted a Blog that's the biggest in a long time and gave it a good read, 2 times. It really broke my heart and I'm watching through the lens of another person and how they feel about people as well as things.


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Regret is how I feel when I go on her website and read her blogs. I sent a letter to her because an old friend of hers had her address and I wrote some sexual shit in it and she confronted me about it so now I'm blocked for however long. But I totally understand where she is coming from.

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Holidays are always lonely for me. Around these times I have bad memories of friends and girlfriends. But I never meant any harm to Rose I was having a strange phase I was going through and I couldn't but help go behind her back and get her address. Then write a 3 page letter. It was really stupid of me I could have done better and maybe surprise her with a nice gift though I think she would still be mad about it. I'm so lonely and I have hardly any friends. Depression just sucks me back in every day and I try my best to stay positive. Rose told me about all of the abusive friends in the past before and I felt so bad. Her timer has been going on and on. Her explanation for it is otherwise but Rose lies a lot about things in order for no one to carry her burden.

Right now I just don't know what to do. I'm really sad and my heart still hurts. It really sucks going to bed so lonely and sad. All I feel is darkness surround me and dread going into a repetition of having to do the same thing over and over again. I don't know when I will be able to get a girlfriend again. How I met my last one was by chance because she saw a post of mine and really liked it. I woke up one morning a month ago and saw someone add my discord so I accepted, come to find out it's a beautiful girl venting to me about her ex. Telling me about how often she thinks about offing herself. So you know what that led to.

I don't understand why Rose won't add me back or give me another chance. She knows I really don't want to fuck her and she knows about how many women I have been with so I don't understand why she can't just shrug it off. Seriously tired of larping like we are friends at the moment. I guess it's just a way I cope with my loneliness.
 
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