two front war
Is there a front war on both sides of Rose? Of course. I have known about serious sensitive situations she has been involved with, you don't even need to personally know her to understand because she talks about it publicly in her posts. Her ways are from mental illness and past situations. But with that being said & being very fair in making that a reminder & acknowledgment there is still one front that Rose has that can be prevented very easily with some effort involved. I can (due to personal SA) speak for the one front that is very difficult to win and that's the past, but this other one I'm referring to is one that Rose created that she can easily get rid of and then work on winning on the one that matters the most. And this front (for the 100th time) is the narcissism she spews on her posts, her manipulation, & cynical beliefs. One thing that helped me get through my hardship is taking a step outside and leaving behind what was on the screen for just some hours and reflecting on what happened, what could have happened, and where I'm at right now. Many of these quiet space sessions I had helped me breathe, get through my sexual assault, get through university, get through internship and now I'm using it to get through the process of buying a small house with a lot of paperwork and steps involved. That day when I forgot about everything, is one I can remember like it was yesterday. I mean, let's be 100% real, therapy wasn't really a thing until now and people still picked themselves up, I think when you go outside, clear your head, and cry without having to jump for joy because you realize that you are given new days and new nights, an amazing body with cool functions that we overlook and so much more, you then become this evolved form of yourself, something better than what you were the day before. I'm not religious but I did give the bible a try, and when I read it, I realized some things I didn't know before. One thing is for sure, how amazing the universe is and whatever made it was a wonderful craftsman of such a huge place beyond our comprehension. I was always also considered the weird girl in class throughout my high school years then was home-schooled for two of those years and never really had friends just a messed up boyfriend who took advantage of me. But even after all that, I always reminded myself that I had something of a purpose so I fought hard for a scholarship and got it. I also remember that day, I was busting my ass off as a waitress but then when I got home, I was awarded with it, and I felt so good because it took me 2 weeks to complete the essay and make sure everything was the best could make it. My grandmother was also a SA victim in her youth, but she was also a very hard-working woman and I remember when I was little, she would make sure her house was clean like you could eat off of the floor. I know this is a huge dump of TL: DR but I think you get the idea so I do digress here with that personal stuff. Rose can be a strong independent woman for an era of her life that can get her up on her feet. But this battle, this line of bloodshed inside her mind is so fucking naive, selfish, and counterproductive. I get you have stalkers and creeps, yeah screw them, but dude, this calling out the people who are trying to help you is beyond stupid. This imaginative "stalker" shit just makes your situation worse. Not every man is trying to SA you, dude, like, it's like when I get home from work, I just hop on some platform and say "My coworkers are shady, like creepy, like trying to touch me kind of creepy" when in reality, when the smile at me, its to be positive and start the morning right with some charisma. And if a dude hits on me, I just become a smart ass so they get the hint. So then the female who talked to me yesterday also mentioned that Rose praises men in her discord but there was a group of girls in there that started to flirt with some of the men, so Rose banned them but before she did, for a whole week she started to be quirky toward those girls until she couldn't handle the presence of other women. Like, Rose wants to tease all the boys but then when another woman steps in and starts to get freaky with some of them, there is a problem. It's so crazy. But from experience and knowing how Rose is, this front line she has open will continue and more people will fall victim to her. Rather than closing it and working on the one that has been holding her back.