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Me & Rose are self admitted porn addicts. We have some waka doo issues. But we have a level of self-respect regardless. Which is why I don't understand why I was blocked & why I found another sister figure in my life. I think word has spread that I found another Rose that has a boyfriend that promised me a harem in a discord server. Problem is, this girl doesn't understand how dangerous BPD is & I even explained to her that
@Timepace has BPD. I was ghosted by her, accused of sexually assaulting her if I met her in real life, the circus act continues.
Sometimes I do feel like I'm a reject in my life. I had a swedish nazi use me for 5 years, Rose dropped me after we were becoming close, now I'm in a discord server with another Rose with a chick that has BPD that ghosted me. My life is a punchline at every corner but if Rose takes me back in I will apologize to her and her boyfriend for coming onto her. I don't understand why she won't give me a second chance. We were really becoming close. Let's face it, I called this new sister girl another Rose, she's not, she's a part of the LGBT and is in a polly relationship with two other women and I think the BPD chick I was dating for a week was cheating on me with her because she's polly.
But one thing I did not do is leak discord direct messages between me and the new rose and the BPD women. I never dropped roses nudes when Rose gave me nudes out of nowhere. I still have them inside of my mind. I wanted to pin her on the floor and jam her in the ass like she's a homeless women but again I'm trying to restrain my sexual urges because this morning I woke up while humping my bed.
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I'm not fucked up for saying that, even Rose wants non-consensual consensual sex. I would give her just that and make her feel like a toy just to fuck. But of course my life is always crashing down. Getting denied a quarterly bonus, being cheated on by two women, one was suicidal the other has BPD. My new year already sucks and I feel ashamed to even live at this point. What's next? Getting cat fished by a transexual person? I have been stalked by transexuals before but I don't want to go to their house just to have the reveal that they have a penis but that might as well happen because my romance life is a punchline at every corner.
This new Rose sucks and she doesn't give me enough attention, at least with original Rose she gave me the attention I felt that I deserved. Discord is terrible and I found new Rose on an alt right livestream which doesn't make sense because she is pansexual who knows really I just want to be loved. BPD girl guilt tripped me into being in a relationship with her just to ghost me. Oh well,
@Timepace wants to be a man, I have an ex best friend stalking my youtube channel and Kaine blames me for Rose blocking him. We chatted off the site on discord and he told me I'm the reason why Rose doesn't want to talk to him even though I was only kind to Rose.