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When I finally have my community and I'm whorshipped as if I'm Ronnie Radke without the tattoos and 2000s aesthetic is the day I will make a public apology to Vicky.
Let's be real. I'm egotistical. I overly obsess about myself. But one thing I will do is pretend that I have forgiven Vicky so no body is up my ass about our beef. Because I would have not cared for her at the point because I have what she took away. Yes she led me on BUT she destroyed my chances with other females on multiple occasions. She followed me all the way to SoEMO just to make up stories that I'm a rapist and no one should date me.
I really want Vicky to try to ruin more relationships for me. It will give me an ego boost. She will go around telling all the daddy issues girls that I'm a rapist. Yet they want to be raped by me since they whorship me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
But 5 years from now when I'm popular with my niche and Vicky is popular with her niche, she will look back at my public apology video and begin to hear voices in her head yet again. Then she will make up more allegations that I'm a rapist and the cycle continues. I enjoy being the Villain though. Even though I did nothing wrong to Max, I did nothing wrong to Vicky, I'm always the bad guy in every case. It's like, they screw me over but when I snap; then they are the cry bullies. Nothing they did was wrong. And I'm just a guy with a keyboard running his mouth about them. I'm the one that keeps them on my mind. Surely I'm the deranged one? But that's okay. I want them to keep thinking that and I want people to view me as a problematic individual. They made their own playground and for some reason they allow me to keep playing on it while leave it a mess. Everything thing they did to me is pretty much the house they built and I walk in every time just to take a shit on the floor.
But when my day comes and it almost did, they will fear me. They will hide from me. And when Vicky sees I'm friends with some females she will spiral into a Kratom binge then go around telling them I'm a rapist.
how lovely it makes me blush
Let's be real. I'm egotistical. I overly obsess about myself. But one thing I will do is pretend that I have forgiven Vicky so no body is up my ass about our beef. Because I would have not cared for her at the point because I have what she took away. Yes she led me on BUT she destroyed my chances with other females on multiple occasions. She followed me all the way to SoEMO just to make up stories that I'm a rapist and no one should date me.
I really want Vicky to try to ruin more relationships for me. It will give me an ego boost. She will go around telling all the daddy issues girls that I'm a rapist. Yet they want to be raped by me since they whorship me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
But 5 years from now when I'm popular with my niche and Vicky is popular with her niche, she will look back at my public apology video and begin to hear voices in her head yet again. Then she will make up more allegations that I'm a rapist and the cycle continues. I enjoy being the Villain though. Even though I did nothing wrong to Max, I did nothing wrong to Vicky, I'm always the bad guy in every case. It's like, they screw me over but when I snap; then they are the cry bullies. Nothing they did was wrong. And I'm just a guy with a keyboard running his mouth about them. I'm the one that keeps them on my mind. Surely I'm the deranged one? But that's okay. I want them to keep thinking that and I want people to view me as a problematic individual. They made their own playground and for some reason they allow me to keep playing on it while leave it a mess. Everything thing they did to me is pretty much the house they built and I walk in every time just to take a shit on the floor.
But when my day comes and it almost did, they will fear me. They will hide from me. And when Vicky sees I'm friends with some females she will spiral into a Kratom binge then go around telling them I'm a rapist.
how lovely it makes me blush
Rose has been on my mind today. I was having shower thoughts while driving during the evening with the windows down. Thinking about her current situation. With my acceptance of the failure of the things we have tried to create, there was a sense of understanding & introspection. Even if there were people involved in the destruction of what we working on, the timeline came with blessings afterwords. Our approach was not questionable. Our awareness was fine. It was our dreaming. We weren't doing it enough. My garden today would not be where it's at without my dreaming of it. If anything there would be less coordination. Less trees. But because I dreamed of it, it's in a good size. Plants have grown well during this summer.
Rose with her history. It doesn't permit it as much as I have allowed my dreams flow through. But I have proven and revealed her the essence of being granted gifts. The gifts of that come from a natural light. I dream that our breakthrough will finally occur. Like the Nevermind Album of Nirvana. "Smells Like Teen Spirit" was what landed them into the global spotlight. Before then in the Bleach era, they were struggling. Even when Sub-Pop gave them $60,000 over the period of a year and made their albums; it wasn't enough. But when DGC came along and MTV rotated Smells Like Teen Spirit in 1991, it was then the breakthrough happened.
Studying Nirvana has inspired me to have my breakthrough. On August 24th, my breakthrough almost happened. It was the closest I have ever gotten to winning millions upon millions of dollars. When Rose saw it, it must have made her feel something that wasn't hopelessness or gloom. The drastic change over the night would have allowed for an avalanche of success to finally take form. Currently Ken has low morale for Onion Farms. I have pleaded with him to turn over ownership to me if he decides to quit. Maybe it's a sign that my time is almost here. For those that read most of my stuff, you know how much I'd love to own this website. I want to put Vicky & Max behind me. I want to put my destroyed youtube channel and destroyed community behind me. I have already. I have let go and accepted what happened. But it's not 100% until I get this. The reality I dream of.
Because Rose has meant a lot to me through the years of knowing her. I feel like we've grown close over time. She has been a really good friend to me and she cannot be replaced. But I know we can also have others of our desired demographic as close to us as we are to each other and not some normie let downs that don't clique with us. I want to tell Rose that I finally don't have to worry about money again. Likewise to her since of course I'd share with her. I want that day to come when we can experience the breakthrough together. Leaving the underground but also being in the shadows of the public. Meaning, I don't want normies nor do I want retards ruining what we have going like the websites. Too much attention isn't good. We don't want people we don't want. We want the people that are our community.
And before this happens. CSO & Boulder have been encouraging when I vent my griefs as well as voice what I aspire for. They both see a fire in me I forget I have. Both have been trying to sway my dormancy into chaotic success. That's the people I want around. So I appreciate them and I'd like to thank them. Because they are not abusers. No, I don't mean trolls or people that insult me. I mean abusers that I put trust in when it comes to making nothing out of something. They want to see me make something little into a titan. It's the type of energy I've always needed. Max never wanted to see me reach a comfortable life. He wanted me to always be stressed out and tired. When I told him I started to work. He said. Work will discipline me. As if he didn't give a shit that I didn't avoid having to work. To him, everything he did to me wasn't his fault. When I would come home and complain about my job. It gave him an ego boost. I get ego boost. But I don't get ego boost when a suppose friend is suffering. Whatever happened to Max before he started to be in social circles on the internet prior to 2019 makes him project his misery onto others. So that's what he did. He did it upfront but he also did it behind your back. He saw I was full of energy and confidence. What did he do? He shit all over it. I bet he got a huge ego boost when he told my former friend who is mentally disabled that I abandoned him when really, I cut ties because he manipulated the shit out of him. So I had to in fear he'd use him to fuck with me. I wasn't going to let that happen. As of this month. His channel still under performs. Yes it's mostly his community that cares for him but aside from that, he has not reach the success that he had back in 2019- 2020. But even with his community he doesn't interact with them. Just like Vicky. She hardly interacts with her discord server. That's the person that ruined everything for me. And that's okay because I am going to make a come back. It's only a matter of time.
I'm excited for what comes into my life by December. I mean shit, having the breakthrough for a birthday gift is the only gift I want. Maybe with some snow in the mix. Telling Rose she doesn't have to suffer anymore and that she can finally climb out of the dark age she's in would be my christmas present to her through a simple text on discord.
Rose with her history. It doesn't permit it as much as I have allowed my dreams flow through. But I have proven and revealed her the essence of being granted gifts. The gifts of that come from a natural light. I dream that our breakthrough will finally occur. Like the Nevermind Album of Nirvana. "Smells Like Teen Spirit" was what landed them into the global spotlight. Before then in the Bleach era, they were struggling. Even when Sub-Pop gave them $60,000 over the period of a year and made their albums; it wasn't enough. But when DGC came along and MTV rotated Smells Like Teen Spirit in 1991, it was then the breakthrough happened.
Studying Nirvana has inspired me to have my breakthrough. On August 24th, my breakthrough almost happened. It was the closest I have ever gotten to winning millions upon millions of dollars. When Rose saw it, it must have made her feel something that wasn't hopelessness or gloom. The drastic change over the night would have allowed for an avalanche of success to finally take form. Currently Ken has low morale for Onion Farms. I have pleaded with him to turn over ownership to me if he decides to quit. Maybe it's a sign that my time is almost here. For those that read most of my stuff, you know how much I'd love to own this website. I want to put Vicky & Max behind me. I want to put my destroyed youtube channel and destroyed community behind me. I have already. I have let go and accepted what happened. But it's not 100% until I get this. The reality I dream of.
Because Rose has meant a lot to me through the years of knowing her. I feel like we've grown close over time. She has been a really good friend to me and she cannot be replaced. But I know we can also have others of our desired demographic as close to us as we are to each other and not some normie let downs that don't clique with us. I want to tell Rose that I finally don't have to worry about money again. Likewise to her since of course I'd share with her. I want that day to come when we can experience the breakthrough together. Leaving the underground but also being in the shadows of the public. Meaning, I don't want normies nor do I want retards ruining what we have going like the websites. Too much attention isn't good. We don't want people we don't want. We want the people that are our community.
And before this happens. CSO & Boulder have been encouraging when I vent my griefs as well as voice what I aspire for. They both see a fire in me I forget I have. Both have been trying to sway my dormancy into chaotic success. That's the people I want around. So I appreciate them and I'd like to thank them. Because they are not abusers. No, I don't mean trolls or people that insult me. I mean abusers that I put trust in when it comes to making nothing out of something. They want to see me make something little into a titan. It's the type of energy I've always needed. Max never wanted to see me reach a comfortable life. He wanted me to always be stressed out and tired. When I told him I started to work. He said. Work will discipline me. As if he didn't give a shit that I didn't avoid having to work. To him, everything he did to me wasn't his fault. When I would come home and complain about my job. It gave him an ego boost. I get ego boost. But I don't get ego boost when a suppose friend is suffering. Whatever happened to Max before he started to be in social circles on the internet prior to 2019 makes him project his misery onto others. So that's what he did. He did it upfront but he also did it behind your back. He saw I was full of energy and confidence. What did he do? He shit all over it. I bet he got a huge ego boost when he told my former friend who is mentally disabled that I abandoned him when really, I cut ties because he manipulated the shit out of him. So I had to in fear he'd use him to fuck with me. I wasn't going to let that happen. As of this month. His channel still under performs. Yes it's mostly his community that cares for him but aside from that, he has not reach the success that he had back in 2019- 2020. But even with his community he doesn't interact with them. Just like Vicky. She hardly interacts with her discord server. That's the person that ruined everything for me. And that's okay because I am going to make a come back. It's only a matter of time.
I'm excited for what comes into my life by December. I mean shit, having the breakthrough for a birthday gift is the only gift I want. Maybe with some snow in the mix. Telling Rose she doesn't have to suffer anymore and that she can finally climb out of the dark age she's in would be my christmas present to her through a simple text on discord.