I remember in private messages I would joke about her doing heroin to see how she would react to see if she would lie or seem to lie. Because about 3 years or so ago her body was abnormally skinny, skinnier than it is now (because of course the cow lingerie shit her sick fucks jerk off too). I remember one time I asked her, and she only would put an emoji like this :3. So that tells me right off the bat she has a history of H or something that causes an extreme high. She was open about mushrooms, which type I don't know but with those, they aren't as hard as other drugs.
If my inference is correct, even if she is clean, and has been clean, I feel like from the way she communicates and behaves that drug whatever it was still has an indirect hold over her. She's not doing it but I bet she craves a high like no other rather than constant masturbation, shrooms, or whatever one would feel high from. I might be overthinking this, but sometimes you have to look outside of what you already know. (the lore).
I treated her very well before the incident. I never used her I could never do such a thing. We shared interests in many things, yeah for the first half it did feel like I was interacting with a person I work with at work, but later on it was like I was opening her up even more to me as a friend. We shared our terrible experiences and maybe talked about how much we wanted to just kill ourselves, typical daddy issue shit, I guess. But now that I have broken from those chains so to speak, I see things more clearly.
As I have said once before or shit, many times, her fate has been sealed in a box we can't open to see what it is. I have said countless times, there are ways to fight this battle that seems uphill, and there are ways to improve the way you interact with others, but with Rose, it's just a Slippy slide right to a shit pit and with this new information about grooming allegations, I would not feel a thing if she does decide to take her own life.
And for the ones reading this thinking, this is a shitty way to look at things. let me ask you this (yes, I'm gaslighting you bitch), what if the shoe was on the other foot and you are the one who had it worse and was trying to improve while Rose had it all?