Tamara truly inspires me. How can a Jew inspire me? I hate jews. Sometimes differences dissolve when two evils meet in the middle. People call what she did to be dubious and selfish. However the more I look into the case of 3 years of obsession into Ethan I realize how beautiful her effort was. To the likeness of mine. Her past is not known. You could argue it's a case of a weird girl being on a spectrum who fell in love with someone she's a fanatic of. Even if her history is unknown, she took what she thought was hers. Moral fags will spout the destruction of a family. Yet destruction was placed upon me and my well being through many years. To be in a position of constant yield would not serve me nor my aspirations. Her story inspires me to destroy if it means to gain what is owed to me. I never went into the world asking for fights. Challenging randoms and even people I know was never my code. Yet I was challenged. Had what I worked hard for taken from me because of their shitty personality. Once those who have wronged me are down on their knees, on lookers come to me to "forgive", give them mercy. Telling me to "move on". The same fools that don't understand time and space don't exist. Same fools that are played by the system that forces them to work for money. Time isn't linear because it doesn't exist. In correlation to life, wisdom isn't the same as what is told by books because wisdom with those are subjective. Cliche's don't apply to everyone. Lessons are different and can be taught differently. Moving on is surrender. It is the act of telling the other side their narrative is correct and yours holds no value. Those that win the war has the privilege of the pen and paper to have the other side sign away rights that you made rules for because your cause outlived theirs. If we want to talk about human behavior, this is one of the truest forms of it. Morals are nothing more than frameworks from religions meant to control. Once you have suffered because of the acts of those that you have entrusted on top of dealing with personal problems, you become blind to the color of what's in the right. Because when you have found peace for some time. When you have a platform to stand on with the belief it's strong. Eventually a strong current of force will sweep it all away when you did nothing to deserve it. Bringing ethics into my situation is foolish. Those who have took my platform away to stand on with firmness are those who need to be stoned in the town square. Having rocks thrown at me is the act of ignorance and pettiness. They add to the already loud problem. They should join those who are being stoned because they are the remnants of the storm that left the path of destruction.
I wish Tamara the best. Even a Jew made me reach deeper into myself than a foolish movement full of drug addicts and out of touch men.