It is crazy to me that 70% of Americans do not know how the government works. I do not hate America the concept nor the characteristics of it. I hate a lot about the people in it. The culture norms. The faggotry. The niggerism. Pedophiles getting away with everything. There are so many beautiful places. But where beauty stands is where also the ugly does. You have a nice beach and then you have resorts that take up spaces that declare a part of the public beach is their property. I get it. I understand why private shit exist. Trust me if I had money I'd fly private, but there shouldn't be 5 miles of closed beach because there are 5 miles of resorts. That's absurd. When I fly private I'm not asking for there to be a private airport, I'm asking for peace and quite when I fly. When I book a nice hotel, I'm not asking for it to take up public beach, I'm just asking to not be fucked with or bothered by anyone while I'm in my suite. That's how humble I am compared to these rich assholes. But this culture fucking sucks. It's so fucking incorporated, so trash. Everyone drives like assholes when our infrastructure is so developed to where it's literally easy to drive safely compared to rag head land where they drive on dirt roads with scooters. Then everyone who isn't deeply right, they say we're pipe dreaming. That we're against the American experiment. No motherfucker we're against degeneracy that rips people apart and destroys families. While there is freedom there should be adjustment as well. Everyone wants to be perverted and sick. Fucking the same sex, fucking their family, fucking kids, fucking animals, just fucking anything that's not normal. While I was having lunch. I was watching how fucked my generation is. It's so sad. It's so sad that I don't even consider myself apart of any of it. Everyone is retarded. Half of my generation is on drugs, collecting, not working, or suicidal. The other half can't fucking read or do math. Everyone wants to be on the phone, at work. And for the people in relationships. Motherfucker, if you're in love you shouldn't have to be on the phone at work texting them. There is this new expectation that you have to be on the phone with your boyfriend or girlfriend 24/7 now and it blows cock. You don't know how many fucked up relationships I've been in. I literally got dumped while I was at work. Here I'm ready to enjoy a salad I made, I open up discord and the girl dumps me because she though I was immature. It cut me like a knife. But I didn't request to go home early. Yeah I didn't eat my salad but I toughed it up until I got home, then I cried and handled my problem with the break up. I don't just start tweaking and frantically texting while I'm on the job thinking we'll get back together. People are pathetic and I'm anti-social as fuck. When I see a cute girl I want to Ted Bundy her. I've been so fucked over by women that I'm just into raping and killing them. Specifically with strangling them with rope. That's how far gone I am that my mind registers females as threats and not human beings. I never chose to be this way. Never inherited it. But when you have been badly hurt over and over; then you have to start from square one again and again... another thing too. After Ellie had died. This one women from other classes approached me. I didn't approach her. She liked me, so we started talking. The whole time I thought she genuinely liked me. Everyone knew about what happened, she did as well. But this girl was using me as an emotional cup holder. Her parents were about to divorce. The mom was fucking the next door neighbor. So one day she asked me after school on a Friday to meet her in the woods, down the road from me where I was living at the time. I wasn't expecting anything, no kissing, no sex, nothing. We sat next to each other and talked, mostly about her problems. Now that I think about it, I wish I forced her to the ground and had my way with her. She was one of few that badly hurt me and I wasn't even out of High School yet. She broke my heart so bad, the fact that after she got over her problems in the household she ghosted me. I would write her letters and she claimed she kept them under her pillow. No one knew we were talking, she only had one friend. She never told her parents where she was at, they were fighting anyways. She could have vanished because of me and no one would have a clue who did it. And she lucked out too. She got a huge scholarship. She played the whole catholic girl shit too, to get where she is at. She proclaimed to be a church girl yet after my best friend, the girl that I loved and couldn't express it... fucking died. The only reason why she approached me was to use me as a shoulder to cry on. If I lacked empathy. If I wasn't a controlled sociopath. She would have been raped and strangled to death. Body dumped into the river and it would be a cold case to this day. And when I was addicted to porn for what felt the longest time. It took a lot of my innocence away. Max knew I had deep problems. The fact he tried to get me to shoot up my school. He told me that my dead best friend would probably appreciate it. No, he was trying to see an already broken person fall even harder. It would make him feel good about himself because he doesn't have the balls to commite a massacre. That motherfucker. He's part of the reason I am the way I am. Why I'm sick and twisted. He fucked me up even more. He tried to get me to get Rose to kill herself because he saw she was actually trying to help me with my problems, unlike him; he tried to amplify them. Me and her were a thing until he had to fuck it all up. Max is so perverted he targets the weak all of the time. Every fucking time. He made fun of my brother dying. He let other people make fun of him dying. He tried to get a disabled person to cut themselves. He tried to get rose to cut herself. He hazed a guy to suicide. He is responsible for a death and only me and a handful of people know about it. It was a huge cover up. Max was offering to help me with my youtube so I keep my mouth shut. The internet has no clue about the suicide at all and he got away with it. The sister has no clue that was hazed him to the point he couldn't take it anymore. Max brainwashed me into doing it. He had me convinced that he was a corrupt person over some petty shit between Max and him. That he was a danger to others and that if we got him to die it would be doing everyone a favor. And he said this to everyone else. Every time I would get a girl, he would have to get involved and fuck it all up. He had me try and date an autistic girl. I knew it was wrong but he convinced me it wasn't because "I'm not the type to rape". He used me as a carrier for nudes. He used me to get nudes from an autistic girl that I don't think had a clue what was really going on. Max had me do a lot of his dirty work because when we first met I was only 16. And from 16 to 19 he groomed me into doing sick shit for him. He even got a now advirsory of his to blackmail one of his female friends. Her nudes are out there now just over some petty disagreement between him and her. And no one has a fucking clue... And here I am, washed up and angry at the world because I put so much trust into this motherfucker just for him to fuck me over from every direction. His youtube channel is dead. He did all of this shit for nothing. But yet he's the good guy. He's the one that couldn't do any wrong. It's eveyrone else that is fucked up. Never takes responsibilty for anything he does... ever.
