In Memory of my Youtube channel
12 Years Ago. On October 22nd 2014 my channel was born. At first I wanted my name to be Armybro16 since that was my very first gamer tag on Playstation 3. But because I already had a youtube channel under the alias SwaggishHooligan47 I stuck with it. Though my channel was created 12 years ago on this day I didn't start uploading youtube videos until I got an Elgato game capture card. Also when I had a shitty Toshiba laptop that was broken. My channel took off in the later years of 2017 - 2018 due to the fact I was given my very first personal desktop computer. It was then I learned OBS and VSDC editing software where I transferred my youtube channel from recording on a shitty laptop camera to finally capturing and livestreaming gameplay on my computer.
During those years I grouped up with a few best friends from middle school to high school. When they lost interest in the youtube dream I then separated myself from them to making my own community. I would stream every day after school. I would stream 9 hours in total during the weekends and breaks. The amount of effort and grind that was put into the channel would pay off in 2018. In 2018 it was the healthiest. 15 people would line up to join my discord call. Thanks to Team Fortress 2 I would cultivate a small following that allowed me to make friends and memories along the way. In February of that year I would get a break and have 2 videos ripping from daily dose of internet that would propel my channel to 14,000 subs. I was having the time of my life.
Unfortunately Maxmimilianmus would stumble upon me. 2 months before the initial trolling he saw my channel, commented something, then left. 2 months later he came back to harass and troll me and my community. Though at the time everyone has each others back including my girlfriend at the time. Because Max saw that I had a huge dream he took advantage of me and groomed me into doing his dirty deeds like being part of Hazing within his friend group. Because Max had such an influence on me he pulled me from what I built and used me as a pawn while promising me success in return. I was foolish but also at the age of 17 and he controlled me until I put my foot down. His influence stayed from 2018 - 2022. Around 5 years of control and manipulation.
The fateful day that led to my channels destruction.
It was Feburary, 2021 when Max decided to raid MoistCritikal's stream. Even though the allegations were not confirmed entirely. I did witness a Discord call where Max and another person were watching a Korean movie where a kid was being sexually assaulted in a bathroom by a teacher. I was removed from the call within seconds. I did not know they were watching such content before I joined the call. I thought they were watching youtube videos. But as far as child porn in his discord server. I did not witness any of that. Though because of Max's lack of consideration for his friends, smaller channels such as myself would get trolled and mass reported. Mine being one of them. My channel would be terminated in 2022 due to the fallout of the controversy. Max knew this and promised me redemption like including me in videos. We even played MW 2019 together for voice trolling clips but again he never included me in them.
Later in 2023 Max would try to get me to get Rose to kill herself. Max has a problem with women in general and he would have a problem with me getting a girlfriend. Even though me and Rose weren't dating he still had an issue with me being friends with her so he wanted me to make reddit thread dedicated to getting Rose to kill herself. It was then I put my foot down and befriended Rose as the manipulation and control from him was wearing down. It was the best decision I have made regarding Max. I support Moistcritkal for what he did. If it wasn't for him, Max would probably still be controlling me and using me as someone to punch people around. Amrit, one of our friends committed suicide because of the constant hazing on the friendgroup. That I take accountability for by the way. But I wasn't the only one. Max and a group of others were involved. His death was covered up and his sister was lied to about what really happened and what really caused his death. Max among others has blood on their hands. Even though it was also due to personal reasons, the constant bullying and hazing would results in feelings being hurt. Like one time I was ordered by Max to tell another friend that they should kill themselves. Max's channel is dead. If not dead, barely existent. While channels like Moistcritical are still successful. I may not have my channel anymore but Max's channel has been in decline since 2022 to the point he struggles at being consistent with uploading videos.
Rest In Piece my beautiful hard work. Because of you. I made friends. Because of you, to this day I dream big.
