Freeze Peach 🍑 crescent / 2nd in command / roses's brother

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I heard the news today. Also her name was Ellie Jeez.

But I was really hoping it was Vicky instead of a cute Asian chick from season 4.

Yeah go ahead and archive this Vicky so you can use this against me in the future.

 

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Strange enough I had a dream about you Vicky. I haven't checked your socials in over a month because I don't care about your existence but for some reason you reappeared in my dream. It wasn't lucid enough for me to control everything that was happening but I did have a say in some of it.

You showed up to the factory I worked while I was on break. You wanted to confront me but also talk to me about what I did to you. For some reason you wanted to corner me in the truck depot with no one around like you were trying to assault me. I wasn't afraid of you but I was ready to fight you if you decided to swing on me.

I can't remember much but this version of you was so low in life, so depressed. The look on your face when you first saw me and the dwelling in your eyes. I was surprised but also satisfied seeing the suffering. I got what I wanted and I think me seeing you in the dream reminded me of that but you were being tough to get my attention while also needing to spill out your regrets with the way you treated me, with what you taken away.

I don't dwell on it, and again I literally forgot about you but for you to come into my dream again with this demeanor was strange. I check your instagram just to see if it had anything to do with it, you still haven't streamed or posted again. I checked your account on here, you were logged in at 3 in the morning lurking. It's as if I created this dark cloud over you that you cannot get rid of.

It's like... whatever curse you had before was replaced with whatever one I gave you and it just made your life a loop of getting nowhere. Yeah you get a job, scrape by. Your new addiction is Kratom. (Also the FDA is thinking of placing it in Schedule 1. LOL, it is a highly dependent substance.) You get new boyfriends just to be disappointing if you ever get any. And meanwhile I may not have my desires but I have way more dignity, cut down on my own habits and have been staying very optimistic with the things I want.

Our goals weren't to make something generic or just another niche. Our goals were to have a family like group where we could express our censored beliefs and begin to penetrate the walls to reach others just like us. So we don't feel like everything is doom and gloom. We feel a sense of paradise.

So if you still have thoughts about me and what I did, that is your problem. You should have moved on by now. I gave you those stickers because I literally don't even view you as Vicky but just another user on the forum since you so obsessed with Kiwi Farms now because some Kiwis clowned on you for being such a failure at Fishtank. You should have never fucked with me and now you are paying the consequences for the rest of your life. Yes, the rest of your life. And you won't be able to break whatever cycle this is so enjoy it. I have no pity for you. You can't even boot up a stream to keep your relevancy and I'm waiting for you to appear on Kiwi Farms as a contestant that offed themselves or was arrested for a violent meltdown.

You were always nothing. And will always be nothing.

 

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I'm struggling with how I want to dive into my next poet like writing. I want it to be big and of great quality. Music to the ears of winds. I think of her but then I don't. I'm so overstimulated I can't see her when I lay to sleep. This is my medicine to take so I can clear the fog. So I can make it a rhythm that only stays in the highs never seeking lows. Oh, yeah I haven't been posting my work for obvious reasons perhaps it can be found on my profile. If you know you know. But I only have had one view for a whole month and I've intentionally unlisted them. It's for her really, whenever she finds me. She's in for a ride when she does, I think they are so hard hitting it may bring her to tears and she won't be able to restrain herself. Her obsession of me is permanent never to sway otherwise. The love she will provide me will spoil my soul, making my guilt everlasting. A love so delicate. I gaslight myself for the confirmation of it being real or not. She's the only one that can make my mind truly be one with ease. When I'm tired, she puts me to sleep so I can rise with clear vision and not clutter. A calmness that is therapeutic to my core. Everything I'm doing regarding the unlisted videos is so she can read the library. No whore nor player will mind to read a page therefore it's the perfect funnel.

So I must continue, even if I start with a mess, I will edit it into a masterpiece so every sentence has more color and I will evolve my skill and my way of words. So it doesn't need to be understood, but the sounds of them easy to feel. So when she feels them, she knows. She doesn't guess but instantly chases me down. Getting my attention needing to know more, about me. So she can obsess.

 

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i miss my community. i tell myself everyday i will get a community back. faggot max's channel is still a dumpster file. i dont care if he makes a video and it gets 500,000. this motherfucker killed off everything i worked hard for. i dont dwell on it but holy fuck to him it was really worth it for whatever reason

i know when i run that website, people will come at me for kicks. its so typical when i have something going and someone has to ruin it. i met a turkish girl today and her being from turkey reminded me of how many people i met from other countries because i met a group of turkish people from doing youtube because i used to stream so late

one thing max's overlooks is value in community. he hides behind a friendgroup full of narcissist and sociopaths but cant be around his own fans. did i initiate drama and instigate shit in my community? yeah but i wont do it again if anything, i will just let drama be whatever drama will be but i put so much into my community that i built from the ground up while this faggot has 10 times whatever i had and he still cant be the leader of it, just an asshole that does the same shit over and over thinking hell get a different result

i hope he dies alone, i hope his friends backstab him to the point he just shuts himself off from the rest of society. im going to get back what i used to have just in a different way

 

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Autumn creeps into me. Blanketing a soul of it's most isolation. A king without a crown. Speaking with a women of innocence. Innocence where she can not bare what I really feel. For she would be spooked. However for my soul mate I have done what I must do. Yet nothing yields. No crop of nectar and it's grand colors. What's yielded is nothing. It's empty. My soul rots in the wake. In a night of such, in a time where a crescent nears... I am left with my old vice gripping my flesh like fishhooks. Why? For it is that I am speaking with this women of innocent and I am too foul for her. I am too perverted. I want strings where they don't go. I tell her my heart is corrupted. She asks why of it. I tell her and she understands but she would never raise a sword with me. Against those who have went against me for their vices. Kicks of fashion. Goofs because I was the fool. Though when I am King of the much dedicated day. When it comes I will wrath in silence. Power will not be on a tower nor will it show of itself, but I will sit behind the curtain and play with my play things while being babied for my insecurities. Catered to for my sickness. I thirst for it. I hear the drips of it from the faucet. And it makes me rattle for it. I will restore what was once mine and I will be unstoppable. For now I weep for I feel the emptiness usher in it's Calvary of dread. Under a nearing crescent I sit in the darkness where silence is my only language other than weeps...

 

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I want a little puppet bitch so bad. Run PsyOps on her keep her chasing ghost. It's so frustrating to me. After months of writing poems and relaxing, I still want to have some dirty fun. Something that gets me high, something that is constant. I don't want to do it like anyone else either. I want it to be my thing and my thing only. Get her all worked up over me only leaving bits and crumbs for her. Make her manic needing to know answers.

 

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I had a major fucking win today.

Right now I want to pound the fuck out of a goth bitch to celebrate.

 

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In the period of shadows I am the king. I have dreamt of chaos under my order. I have dreamt of obsession of me at levels beyond clouds. Lately I have won many battles and my ego has only been inflated to a dangerous rank.

My playground just for me is a women or a few that obsess about me. Never are they dormant, they are always speaking my name fighting over my attention. Anomalies like no other. They aren't addicts. But clever minds solving my puzzles. Tracking my every move. Scrolling everything I have ever said.

And the site I desire to run will prosper. Many have commeth to me in dire sincerity of my reign of it all. Even a Goth of such stature of her elements. It only boosted my ego. it only made my thirst ever so grow. I'm no longer a fool. Just one to step forth.

When I perch upon my garden under a silhouette of branches. I have not dwelled but considered what was stripped from me. But when I woke up this morning and saw that I almost won $554,000. I could feel my clutch on my desire. I could feel that I am once more king, And my eyes only grew bigger to what I want.

For those that have stood against me in the past unprovoked. They are reminders for my ambition. To rule like I have before. Many have told me I am the man. That I had something going and I always have something going for me. I have heard the votes for my leadership. I'm not a low life nor a loser.

But I have lost because of them. Traitors and Abusers. Left with broken components needing repair that I HAVE repaired. I am renewed to a former self but much brighter and healthy in the focus of reign. My name uttered before on a scale of the internet and what remains are bits and pieces of that very name. But I will not stand by the old self. Though when I stand again it will be of a new uniform that represents the battles and the perseverance from misfortunes.

I have no mercy for enemies that I never picked fights with in the first place. They shall not stand against me once more for I will perish them from their towers for which they protest their ordeals of mockery. Only will they suffer consequences. Only I will be of the last laughs. Let December be of new snows. So what comes next are steps of feathers. Order will be mine and people will rejoice for I have been sworn in because of my urgent demands for revolutionary progression of broken machines for they will generate the much needed ways of striving.

Then there will be the eternal peace at last that I have once held close to my heart...

 

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No you regret not taking my offer. let's not lie.

Beth had more energy than you anyways.

worse job than what you had before and you lost your car?

you boast about smoking cigs, i hope you get lung cancer pretty soon

you hit the wall at 22? you are turning 29 and in an even worse spot than last year. you are never coming back from hitting the wall

tay is right you are cringe

 

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hey juden burner

you being pissy is really hot. i honestly hope one day you expose me for being a degenerate.

please be sure to make a speech about me from the bottom of your heart insulting me.

i'm so bored out of my mind after i jerk off. i sit on my purple fluffy chair ass naked thinking hard about having a BPD girlfriend that isn't you. doesn't make sense but it doesn't matter

when you start streaming (whenever that happens that isn't a sniff stream) and people begin to care about you again, you should do a Kamikaze_Shortbus style stream exposing me for being such a piece of shit a logger that sits on a forum and talks about sexual shit all of the time and also being creepy about women

it would boost my ego so much, i think i would publicly thank you on behalf of the onion farms for your show of love and support for us

trust me vicky, i really wish i had a crazy girl that isn't you. and that she actually gives me a bit of a challenge rather than just shooting her down constantly without any form of retaliation

i know when i have it my way in my the future as far as running my desired websites, you will use the same tactics I have been using against you for the past 2 years. really I endorse this behavior. you can destroy everything I have and I wouldn't care. you can archive everything I ever said on this website, then show the public. You should title the video or stream "the story about my stalker" to make it sound scary and interesting. Perhaps you could ride the coat tails of this whole ordeal to also boost your popularity on the internet

i love white girls, but i love your kind of white girls. just without the drugs and retardation. I really don't care if you choose to use me as a step up on growing your community but you're missing a good chance to make your discord of horny men come after me

you can't expect to get anywhere just because you were a fishtank contestant. you have to branch out with ideas you came up with to sustain a good grift. i would literally give you a lot of money without strings attached so that way you become some crazy dictator bitch of your fan boys. as much as i enjoy seeing you suffer, i kind of want you to go super sayian. and how can that happen when you're slaving away, tired from your low wage job every day of your life

deep down, you like the popularity, deep down, i want you to grow so you can be an actual advisory of mine. but you're one of those girls that just can't stand men like me. I've already said I'd rape, or murder you already. However, if me and you were a thing from the beginning of time. You would be doing my dishes but when you were done, I'd give you nothing but sugar and good treatment oppose to your ex boyfriends.

my thread may be cucked to you but I have had many compliments due to my drive. I hate being dormant because I'm either lacking material to ramble about or life gets in the way. If I had another women with some crazy mental problem, that actually is active and reactionary, me discussing you would have ended a long time ago but you are all I have. A hot messy abnormal voice mid west girl with such an attitude that gets me all hot and thirsty.

but you are no fun at all and your brain isn't in sync with the forum culture on the internet. instead you are just a borderline jumkie (shrugs shoulders)

So I'm going to talk about you until I find myself another one of your kind

 

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if i ran that other website. 1st of all, i'd ban and remove this stupid bitch that disrespected me that I keep seeing log back in every once in a while. Every time I do, I just think back at what she said to me that infuriated the fuck out of me. She's such a cocky, egotistical little bitch that I'm glad got raped.

but other than that, I'd have some silly girls to use as toys. girls of that type don't mind bad boys after all. they can't help but be mistreated. I do want actual relationships but I also want really fucked up associations with manic women. I can already see it. I have sex with one of them and they make a rape allegation about me.

nothing can stop me. I have already had things ripped from me. So, a rape allegation will hold against me and I'm totally okay with that. I want to be known as a rapist without putting in effort to actually commit such a crime. I would only rape people I hate. As far as mentally ill girls, the obvious thing to do is to make sure they consent, I just want to fuck the shit out of some one for fun and because it feels so good.

i can see it now. vicky will try to get involved and tell everyone I threatened to rape her. everything she says makes no sense half of the time and the only people that will believe her are retards. vicky is somewhat fuckable to me. but if I were to have sex with her, I need her sober. I don't see any fun in having sex with a drugged up women. I want her to feel everything authentically. I want her to cream all over me like its therapy. I'd so fuck her if she wasn't a bitch that infuriated me to no end a few years ago

but again, vicky would try everything in her power to ruin my reputation. she will try to rip my ownership of that website away from me and I will spiral into uncontrollable rage internally. I might show up to her house and get arrested if she decides to ruin my reign over so emo. but again I highly doubt it works because me being some rapist will make the mentally ill girls want me more even though I wouldn't even do it in the first place.

i disturb her anyways, i don't think she would want to be disturbed anymore.

 

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you were handed down something you fucking destroyed for me

community

and you fail at every fucking aspect of having a community

i hope you fucking die bitch

 

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even your discord mocks you

 

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i have lost my high from almost becoming a multi millionaire. i'm having withdraws and it sucks ass

i have cried for the past view days because of shit and a negative head space

i will get back to my ego boosted self tomorrow. i dont sit down all day behind a screen giving up though. fucking lawn mower broke yesterday, took a push mower through a whole yard. i cant ever just be depressed like that but i have my days

also im just feeling to fucking lonely too you know? like i want to be held but again not dwelling on it in a way im just sitting in a corner popping pills. fuck that shit

this year has be eccentric for me in positive and negative ways and i plan on finishing it like the year never began. also. I have attempted repairing the corvette. I give the fuck up. apparently in order to fix a pulley on the power steering pump you have to take 5 FUCKING THINGS OFF!!! Throttle body, coolant hose, fan vent way, power steering fluid reservoir. I still have to have to do a coolant flush, motherfucker im just taking it to a guy that works on these cars. I already almost had a stroke doing the headlights

meanwhile i drive by a lot with 6 brand new corvettes just taunting my middle class ass

im also kind of tired too so thats why i havent been feeling well. i dont complain or bitch that much about it as much as i used to but I must say. I am tired.

Onion Farms is fucking in the morgue man. I still believe in the power of it. Still will be here. but onion farms had a funeral years ago dude. its fucking rigid. goddamn it! i hate people. i am a sociopath. fuck you tim for mocking me for believing that i am. i'm not max. i pull girls when i did. i dont sit in a corner offended by a friend that pulled a zelda. if anything tim, if you pulled a goth angel that isn't one of those that use idiot slang like "vibe, lowkey, ngl" i'd be happy for you

everything is so fucking lame. im never bored but when i sit in the chair of feeling like i should have more than this i get so fucking whiny and bitchy like . like i miss the stimulation of being the man of the hour. i fucking hate normies, i fucking hate people, i hate getting phone calls or being bothered. but i love having my little niche of people. loved it. "hey swag what are you up to? are you doing tf2?" i get it. never getting my channel back. I HAVE ACCEPTED IT! OKAY! but if I took matts position, if i took kens position i would have ALOT MORE than what I had before but im a fucking BUM!!! I"M A FUCKING BUM!!! DUDE

Why am I fucking bum? Why the fuck am I bum? I'm not a fucking bum! Why is rose a fucking bum! Why is she a FUCKING BUM! Don't tell me what to do. Fuck you! Fuck you, fuck you fuck you fuck you

If I feel like having a mental breakdown I will do it! Fuck you!!! Shut the fuck up!!!

Why am I a fucking bum!!! I don't care about what's going on in the world. I don't care if people are getting more fucked up. it's moral this, moral that. its okay to have an abortion and be a pot head

honestly kiss my ass everyone. i want to put you in the fucking dirt. how do you even exist or how do you even operate being a homosexual? why do you drive a range rover? why do drive a suburu? why does america have so many faggity things man. on the other hand, why does everyone have to have a truck? is everyone really building a skyscraper or what?

motherfucker. i need to like... i need like some kind of wishing machine with infinite wishes and it wont be like that shit from fucking obsession, i get to reverse wishes with another wish
im so perverted and dirty holy fuck

if i was an artist or made films you would know im so fucked up no one can compete. im so tired and sleepy... but i want to bitch more...

UGH! fuck everyone

 

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Quiet Wednesday for me which I really appreciate. Might go be in my garden for an hour or two. I must mention a few things though. People are confused. I am not miserable generally. I find peace in chaotic & uneventful times. I have become emotionally mature and don't carry baggage. Rather store history and beliefs in a filing cabinet in the back of my mind. Emotional I will be on an endless list of things. If I said today I want a dysfunctional relationship with a girlfriend. It wouldn't mean from the literal sense. It would mean because of how eventful and thrilling it would be just without the cheating & ghosting. Would I really want that? No, but I do want to have a girl to bully and a girl that bullies me whom also has a deeply emotional attachment to me. I love attention. Not from an audience but from a small group of females with issues. If I want attention from an audience, it would be like those old Gmod videos me and a friend were sharing yesterday of the trolling from 15 years ago. Or if I'm really good at an instrument and I'm deep into my music where the only thing heard are my words within sorrow and despair. Onion Farms has presented a conventional frontier but also provides a corner where I can say and be whatever I want with insults falling before they fly and interest that sticks like glue. I look at pictures of my brother and tell him I was so close at going to Aberdeen. So close to owning my desired websites and creating one from scratch with the help of Rose and another person that I won't mention due to me respecting their wishes. Because I was. I don't dwell on it but still can't process it completely. Lately I have been in such a gloomy headspace. Emotional. Unfortunately digging in too deep of the past. It's a state of being that is easy to climb out of but for some reason I'm walking up the stairs slowly this time instead of at haste. In times like these or as they call it lows, I find opportunity internally. It's like being a kid again and you're lingering around in this liminal space where it's a playground. There's colors, there's cartoonish paintings on the brick wall of this playground room and there is an elevator. I'm this kid right now in front of the elevator contemplating if I want to press the bottom to go up. Because I keep looking back, and back at the place I'm about to leave. But also knowing if I go up, even though I don't know what's above, I know things will only get better. And when I arrive I'm back to my current age with an ego death, and de attachment from everything I was just previously dwelling on. I will finish my last flight of stairs once I get off of the computer and go outside letting go of the baggage.

 

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Like Justin Roiland your life's work, your life's work has been taken away from you.

 

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Justin Roiland did nothing wrong. Sometimes you just have to slap your bitch so she acts right. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

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Why did I ever fucking talk to you? Or help you? Also Harem is like, multiple wives. Something you don't believe in because you're conservative. I mean you're not conservative; more of a neo conservative. but you're also a neo nazi but then again you don't act like it or else you wouldn't be hanging around those queers in your server. So you aren't a Neo Nazi, you're a Neo Conservative because you do drugs and are liberal on somethings. Anyways. I can tell the pain you used to have dissolved. You are more of an Asexual white chick that spouts off about doing substances that make you get on that vibe. You feel? So cool and such a waste. I get why you used to talk about your ex boyfriend a lot. You think you're some High IQ women that isn't like other girls but I heard it from the mouth of Alt right guys like Jake Munro that explain that women forget the good ex's but remember the bad ex's. Because women by default operate on a program where they do power gymnastics with men. And if men are submissive because they care about your feelings, they are losers. But if men are abusive and play the game right, then you get upset but can't help but think about the bad boy. So you are like the average women. You aren't any different.

I'm also glad to see you at least have a community. Must be nice. Yeah I dig those streamer dudes. I have nothing against them. But I just want you to know. You will probably fuck this up in the near future if you don't stay in the sphere of the fishtank. I think you will be forgotten once the next season starts to air. And you will definitely be forgotten once the one after that airs. Which it would be refreshing. I want you to be out performed by your kind. Nothing like getting girls with daddy issues that Jet can use as props for the show. Surely someone will come along at outshine you. Then you will be the void you parade yourself to be which is something you do automatically.

You call be diabolical on fishtank on day 2 and I know you were referring to me but what are you? Are you trying to say you are innocent in any of this? Oh that's right you're the victim...

You were so drunk out of your mind you made so many death threats. Said so much shit, threatening so many people. You stalked me back which was cute and then had countless meltdowns when I said something that would hurt your feelings. I hope you never get back into a relationship. You shouldn't reproduce.

I hope you find nazi female friends. I need a challenge. Bullying them would make me masturbate. Finally some fish I can threaten with rape. Also Sam hyde even said it himself as well as Jake Munro. Nazi chicks get that shit from previous relationships 9/10. You see, Rose got it from herself. Not some white dude that went to prison for petty theft. I also hope you get bullied over and over again. I hope your community has a civil war and it implodes. So you are back to square one where no one gives a fuck about you. Please fade into obscurity.

I need a new bitch to toy with you are so boring. But to see you go back to the state you were in a few years ago would be such an amazing thing. You might decide to jump off a building.

Oh no, another fishtank contestant died. I'd choose Ellie and Suzzie Smalls over you anyday.