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[kiwifails]

With the way my brain works, I don't even really need hallucinogens' since when I sleep - my brain goes into a state where it's overly creative, something I've always been gifted with even when I was much younger

It happens to a lot of us it's because we're in a more relaxed state that's why dream journals exist

. There were times during my teenage years that I'd have a black out sleep where nothing would occur, but this stopped after some time since I became increasingly curious about dreams when I started having lucid dreams and sleep paralysis, and then things went from there where there's never a night I don't dream or have some kind of experience that sticks with me when I wake up. During the days that I'm awake and conscious I'm always finding profound forms of media to consume, which might have a part in the things I dream about and why my imagination is so active. I would still try things like blue lotus, but when it comes to things that are increasingly potent I usually avoid because I could only imagine the things that my brain would create, and it scares me since if my dreams decide to be sadistic, they get extremely dark and beyond levels of horror that could ever be experienced in real life, and that's coming from me, someone whose house burned down and I almost died by burning alive if I hadn't escaped a moment sooner than when I did.

Do you get any PTSD triggers from things burning? Occasionally the smell of burnt toast.

There's something about my brain, whether it stems from mental problems or not that's always been able to create horrors within my dream realms that when they are occurring feel like they'd be enough to make my hair fall out when I wake up - and that's just how my mind can work against itself when I'm sober.

Nightmares are unresolved trauma

 

[kiwifails]

I actually don't get PTSD triggers, I mean for the first few days lighting incense was a turn off for me, but I think the PTSD comes through dreams since I do sometimes still have nightmares of the events that unfolded, because it was bad-bad, the fire came up from the first floor neighbor and straight up into my room, if I had been in my room another minute or two longer I would had become trapped, when I woke up since my roommate was pounding on my door ( I kept it locked so nobody would bother me ), my hard wood floors were glowing red and my room was filled with smoke, got out nearly just in time. It's been nearly three years since the incident, how it happened was retarded too - downstairs neighbor left a candle near her tapestry she had on the wall and then she went to take a shower, and her bedroom was directly beneath mine, and this happened at around midnight when I was fast asleep.

House fires often are caused by some form of carelessness

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Picture of just how large the fire got, the entire complex became engulfed.

Glad to see you came out unscathed that's quite a an apartment fire.

 

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House fires often are caused by some form of carelessness


Glad to see you came out unscathed that's quite a an apartment fire.

Thanks for that.

Yeah, I completely blanked out during it, everyone who came by and friends said I was just acting really casual and joking around the entire time but I can barely remember what went on that night probably from the complete shock I was in, I just remember friends in the area rushing over and helping me with spare clothes and money and other things I needed. I'm all good now, but I think it's pretty fair that something like that would explain why I'm a bit of an introvert nowadays. Had to deal with unhinged people too at the time who trolled me about it, but that's just how the internet be lmao.

 

[kiwifails]

Thanks for that.

Yeah, I completely blanked out during it, everyone who came by and friends said I was just acting really casual and joking around the entire time but I can barely remember what went on that night probably from the complete shock I was in, I just remember friends in the area rushing over and helping me with spare clothes and money and other things I needed. I'm all good now,

Trauma in shock can manifest itself like this. It's good to know that you were able to overcome any kind of prolonged trauma for me.

but I think it's pretty fair that something like that would explain why I'm a bit of an introvert nowadays

You seem outgoing to me

. Had to deal with unhinged people too at the time who trolled me about it, but that's just how the internet be lmao.

To be fair, you do invite some of it, you have a flare for attractive drama.

 

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Trauma in shock can manifest itself like this. It's good to know that you were able to overcome any kind of prolonged trauma for me.

You seem outgoing to me

To be fair, you do invite some of it, you have a flare for attractive drama.

I'm outgoing enough, I guess, just don't usually go outside the boundaries of text, and don't really look to go outside in real life or do much these days besides sit behind my monitor, which I don't know why there's people who have judged me for that in the past, never understood why people care what some person on the internet does or doesn't do in their real life since it wouldn't effect them either way, like me becoming social or getting a job would change their own life in any way.

I'll admit it though, I for sure have a flare for the drama, it's just as fun for me as it is for everyone else, but I'm usually better at it then others are and like to show that off in my own way, no denying it. ˚.༘⋆ We're all here for some pass time though, I'm sure to a lot of people I probably rub off as unhinged myself. I just don't go out of my way to hurt others in the process, my key difference. Never saw the point in targeting smaller fish that pose no harm.

 

[kiwifails]

I'm outgoing enough, I guess, just don't usually go outside the boundaries of text, and don't really look to go outside in real life or do much these days besides sit behind my monitor,

I try to get out as much as possible and go to concerts, movies, local events, museums, and restaurants. Life is amazing, and I'd hate to waste it.

which I don't know why there's people who have judged me for that in the past, never understood why people care what some person on the internet does or doesn't do in their real life since it wouldn't effect them either way, like me becoming social or getting a job would change their own life in any way.

this might help explain it

I'll admit it though, I for sure have a flare for the drama, it's just as fun for me as it is for everyone else, but I'm usually better at it then others are and like to show that off in my own way,

Phrasing*

no denying it. ˚.༘⋆ We're all here for some pass time though, I'm sure to a lot of people I probably rub off as unhinged myself. I just don't go out of my way to hurt others in the process, my key difference. Never saw the point in targeting smaller fish that pose no harm.

That's true as long as you're not here to cause harm to others. We've had a few rotten onions that don't think this way though.

 

[Acrylic EyesAcrylic Eyes is verified member.]

this might help explain it

Sort of explains it, even in this case though I've never understood why people care if a woman gets spoiled or her aesthetic choices and what other people decide to do for her ( if that's the point being made ) like Belle Delphine for instance, her becoming rich and being given whatever she wants because of how she looks doesn't negatively affect anybody besides the men who pour their wallets out and go broke doing it, which really, who cares, if that's what they choose to do with their cash lmao. I've been spoiled on a much smaller scale by "followers" of mine, but people have made it a point to whine and complain that I didn't "earn" my "stuffed animals and manga books" because they were gifted to me, but at the end of the day who really cares.

Phrasing*

That's true as long as you're not here to cause harm to others. We've had a few rotten onions that don't think this way though.

Yeah I don't get into targeting individuals, shit posting is fine and all but I think it's a pretty scummy thing to pick a random target that's very clearly not a threat and then go after them for no reason. I shit post, but to cause harm to others for the sadistic pleasure of it has always been pretty weird to me since there's better ways to spend that time, not sure why people feel the need to shoot fish in a bucket, it's just lame behavior.

 

[kiwifails]

Sort of explains it, even in this case though I've never understood why people care if a woman gets spoiled or her aesthetic choices and what other people decide to do for her ( if that's the point being made ) like Belle Delphine for instance, her becoming rich and being given whatever she wants because of how she looks doesn't negatively affect anybody besides the men who pour their wallets out and go broke doing it, which really, who cares,

I've always found it puzzling why some guys get so worked up about women like Belle Delphine making a living off their looks. If a woman is smart enough to capitalize on her appearance and build a brand around it, more power to her. It's not like she's hurting anyone - in fact, she's just giving guys what they're willing to pay for.

The Dudes who are throwing their money at her are making a conscious choice to do so. They're not being forced into it, that's on them. It's not like she's scamming them or anything - they're just getting caught up in the fantasy she's created.

I think what bothers some people is that it challenges traditional notions of what women should be valued for. But the truth is, women have been using their looks to get ahead for centuries - it's just that now, with social media, it's more out in the open. And if a woman can use her looks to build a business and make a good living, why should we be mad at her for it.

if that's what they choose to do with their cash lmao. I've been spoiled on a much smaller scale by "followers" of mine, but people have made it a point to whine and complain that I didn't "earn" my "stuffed animals and manga books" because they were gifted to me, but at the end of the day who really cares.

Now I want to see your stuffy collection

Yeah I don't get into targeting individuals, shit posting is fine and all but I think it's a pretty scummy thing to pick a random target that's very clearly not a threat and then go after them for no reason. I shit post, but to cause harm to others for the sadistic pleasure of it has always been pretty weird to me since there's better ways to spend that time, not sure why people feel the need to shoot fish in a bucket, it's just lame behavior.

I think there's just a real sadistic streak in people nowadays. I was reading up about the two high School shooters we had recently. Apparently they were groomed into doing it online. Absolutely sickening

 

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I've always found it puzzling why some guys get so worked up about women like Belle Delphine making a living off their looks. If a woman is smart enough to capitalize on her appearance and build a brand around it, more power to her. It's not like she's hurting anyone - in fact, she's just giving guys what they're willing to pay for.

The Dudes who are throwing their money at her are making a conscious choice to do so. They're not being forced into it, that's on them. It's not like she's scamming them or anything - they're just getting caught up in the fantasy she's created.

I think what bothers some people is that it challenges traditional notions of what women should be valued for. But the truth is, women have been using their looks to get ahead for centuries - it's just that now, with social media, it's more out in the open. And if a woman can use her looks to build a business and make a good living, why should we be mad at her for it.

Yeah, the only people I see being mad about it, at least from my own experience with my niche following are those who are jealous, or those who want to have sex with me but can't, it's never any other reason since the same guys who will rag on me for getting free things from strangers online will also rant about wanting to stick their cock in me while trying to degrade me about how "I have it easy" which just leads me to believe they aren't happy with their own life and have these obsessions that they are owed something - and get angry that things don't go their way or they don't get what they want. It's kind of like the Kaine individual we meme on where he's always obsessed over the material things I own and will constantly bring up the things I own or the restaurants I go to, saying that if I'm not working for it myself, or giving up my virginity, then I'm a "leech", which has always just been funny to me because implying somebody is a leech when they just happen to have a supportive following is retarded, if people have money to toss around and want to make somebody else happy, who is it harming? I'm the same way with my own money and toss it on Internet friends of mine because being giving is pretty cool, nobody gets hurt and it's probably not something anyone should see as detrimental to their own way of living even if they don't agree with people having it easy, it's especially not a reason to attack a woman over unless you're just an unhinged piece of shit.

Now I want to see your stuffy collection

I have, so many. The most recent stuffy is a Saya fumo from the visual novel "Saya No Uta."
I bought it for 80 bucks, but it's now worth several hundred which I figured would happen when it was up for pre-order, I love collecting rare things from pieces of media that I love.

She stays in her confinement since she is worth well over five hundred dollars now.

I think there's just a real sadistic streak in people nowadays. I was reading up about the two high School shooters we had recently. Apparently they were groomed into doing it online. Absolutely sickening

I feel like when people are sadistic on the internet towards people like me in particular it doesn't come from a place of hate but rather it's more up there with "I'm going to bully and torment this girl because I actually really like her and want her to think I'm cool and want her to notice me." Which, sure, that's one why of grabbing the attention of a woman online but when you're relentless about it, it gets boring really fast.

People grooming other people into doing heinous and terrible things like what you mentioned though, irredeemable and vile, people like that I'd say are more psychopathic than sadistic.

 

[kiwifails]

Yeah, the only people I see being mad about it, at least from my own experience with my niche following are those who are jealous, or those who want to have sex with me but can't, it's never any other reason since the same guys who will rag on me for getting free things from strangers online will also rant about wanting to stick their cock in me while trying to degrade me about how "I have it easy" which just leads me to believe they aren't happy with their own life and have these obsessions that they are owed something - and get angry that things don't go their way or they don't get what they want. It's kind of like the Kaine individual we meme on where he's always obsessed over the material things I own and will constantly bring up the things I own or the restaurants I go to, saying that if I'm not working for it myself, or giving up my virginity, then I'm a "leech", which has always just been funny to me because implying somebody is a leech when they just happen to have a supportive following is retarded, if people have money to toss around and want to make somebody else happy, who is it harming? I'm the same way with my own money and toss it on Internet friends of mine because being giving is pretty cool, nobody gets hurt and it's probably not something anyone should see as detrimental to their own way of living even if they don't agree with people having it easy, it's especially not a reason to attack a woman over unless you're just an unhinged piece of shit.


I have, so many. The most recent stuffy is a Saya fumo from the visual novel "Saya No Uta."
I bought it for 80 bucks, but it's now worth several hundred which I figured would happen when it was up for pre-order, I love collecting rare things from pieces of media that I love.

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She stays in her confinement since she is worth well over five hundred dollars now.

She's a cutie. I collect video games and other rare media myself, including rare, out-of-print books that are considered too controversial for today's market.

I feel like when people are sadistic on the internet towards people like me in particular it doesn't come from a place of hate but rather it's more up there with "I'm going to bully and torment this girl because I actually really like her and want her to think I'm cool and want her to notice me.

That would be the Calvin method to get little Susie to notice him. Just don't underestimate what people do when they're consumed with misery.

Which, sure, that's one why of grabbing the attention of a woman online but when you're relentless about it, it gets boring really fast.

I think people do it to get a sense of power because they themselves lack any of it in their own lives.
They're losers and they have nothing else.

People grooming other people into doing heinous and terrible things like what you mentioned though, irredeemable and vile, people like that I'd say are more psychopathic than sadistic.

These people are empty husks. They are dead from the inside out, and they spread death and misery everywhere they go.

 

[The Crimson Fucker]

Why do you seem so antagonistic I'm curious.

The reason for my curiosity is because prior to seizing control over my own thread, weren't you one to also have things to say about me? I could be wrong, but even so @Yandere_Theory is fine, he's not bothering me, but it just seems like you get easily annoyed or something, it's something that I wonder about coming from someone I've never really had a connection or conversation with, to my knowledge that is.

@Crimson Fucker - as for a thread about the one dude I was mentioning, I could, but there's other plans for people like him, I feel like creating a thread about people of this nature would be kind of hard too since they keep to themselves, hide behind sock accounts, and don't have a real life profile or existence on the internet like I do, this dude sits around using anime profile pictures, which I can't really say much about since I use images of dolls and such for my own profile pictures - but there's just very little that could be used against him besides some screen shots of him asking me the same questions every day, like if I want to ERP with him, asking me why I don't have a job yet, asking if I'd enjoy taking his cock inside of me, and just overall cringe shit. The dude has admitted to having well over one hundred accounts on discord, and even made a AI bot based on me to ERP with lmao.

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In fact, I'll show a screen shot of the discord bot he made of me because of how cringe it is and the fact that he created a whole ass discord bot that very poorly roleplays as me deserves to be exposed, this shit is just different levels of terminally online and I got second hand embarrassment considering he probably can't get women in real life and has to resort to stuff like this, and he was even open about showing it to me.

If anything I can just use my own thread to document people like him who interact with me since they're pretty heavily involved in my "lore" but to be honest I think he's really the only one whose even noteworthy when it comes to degenerate behavior like this, never met anyone else like this dude whose this far gone in his own delusions and head canons that he's made up about me. His online alias has been stated here before a number of times in the past, "Kaine", and that one image of the Asian Dude that got leaked here was an old picture of him from when he stalked me back when I was like fourteen or fifteen, which I'm not too sure how that photo of him ended up on this thread but I'm going to assume he was in communication with a few people who were originally working on this thread about me.

- I should also note that I'm still in communication with Kaine because even if I blocked him he'd just spend up all of his energy doing whatever he can to get my attention, so I act cordial with him just to milk him for whatever I can get because it's sometimes funny to see how genuinely lost in his delusions he is lol.

Holy shit he's worse than I thought no wonder he was being parodied. I feel like the shit that was being posted here was actually copy pasted from him.

 

[The Crimson Fucker]

I try to get out as much as possible and go to concerts, movies, local events, museums, and restaurants. Life is amazing, and I'd hate to waste it.

this might help explain it

Phrasing*

That's true as long as you're not here to cause harm to others. We've had a few rotten onions that don't think this way though.

I fucking love foamy the squirrel holy shit. I used to read contemplating reiko too back in the day.

 

[kiwifails]

I fucking love foamy the squirrel holy shit. I used to read contemplating reiko too back in the day.

Pillzy is my spirit animal,

 

[The Crimson Fucker]

Pillzy is my spirit animal,
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I remember the artists for this comic and foamy were buddies and they would make fan art and videos of each other's web cartoons.

Spoiler

 

[Prospero]

so wtf happened to timepace lol

 

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so wtf happened to timepace lol

Not too sure but honestly she seemed like the type of person who probably needed time away from the internet, she seemed pretty low self esteem and was a little too obsessive over somebody she's never even met or talked to before hahaha. Hopefully she's receiving help. I was actually so sweet and kind and even tried to add her on steam to see if she's alright but she blew me off which is probably for the best so she doesn't get obsessed with me again.

 

[Yandere_Theory]

so wtf happened to timepace lol

tell your girlfriend I said hi. She's a cutie and that ass was a good pounding thats for sure

 

[kiwifails]

I remember the artists for this comic and foamy were buddies and they would make fan art and videos of each other's web cartoons.

Spoiler

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Has that Jthm vibe

 

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I'm going to be getting some sleep for the night soon but I'm hoping that anyone who reads this has a wonderful morning, day, evening, or night, you deserve it and through purity and kindness everyone can achieve whatever goals they have set for themselves, it's a cold world and all it takes is people being honest and pure through it all even if they are lost they can be welcomed with open arms by those who are willing to accept them as they are. I love people so much and want everyone to be okay and don't hold any ill intentions towards anyone I meet, life and existence is strange but it's interesting and fulfilling too. I've been very appreciative of my time on this website, this community is a place I feel comfortable being myself and having productive conversations with others and I'm thankful for those who spend their time with me. If you are reading this, you are loved and you are kind, and everything will be okay. Goodnight. ⭒˚｡⋆ 𓆑 ⋆｡

 

[Yandere_Theory]

now that the shit storm blew over can we get back to being active
i need to feel the need to put sexual text over pictures of rose so her brain can register what love is