I've been in thought at how much a person whose willing changes in such a short span of time - the will of the human mind to better itself and always evolve. I've had a conversation, with some people who I came to find solace with who I didn't think would forgive me for going against their very nature and ways of thinking, but with the acceptance and being given room to realize that the things I've done in the past were things that work against me - they're not things that I can cover up having done, such as lewd content and the very basic habits of e-girl mentalities, though these have been things that I have also been very open about. There are still people from my past who call me a slut and a whore, and don't allow me to shed that skin and hold on to their predatory false-ideologic views of me that are of delusion. I don't understand people who need to hold onto the memories of the past for their own selfish fulfillment of feeling within a higher state of the very person they berate for being above their antics, it's pathetic. This happens to me very often, as people from my past will often come back around when I make statements of progressing to try and put into my mind that I'm going nowhere, despite these very individuals being in lower points in life than myself as I feel I'm doing what's needed to progress in the goals I have, something that those types of people lack - goals, dreams. It's the holidays and yet there are some people who still feel the need to be miserable towards somebody who doesn't even feel alive, it's the "treatment" of kicking a dead horse.
