I'm misunderstanding why you fools think Rose is still in contact with me. Do you see her Facebook posts? How active she is now? Rose used to distance herself from me for some odd reason. Even though there were some weird interactions in our friendship I refuse to dislike her especially after she blocked me. There was a time me and her fell into each other and our conversations would become explicit in nature but then there was a void of some type every night. Even when we understood that we weren't soulmates, she would still not talk to me at most times and it would elevate my madness. One thing Rose never did though was leak those conversations to other people. Rose might have told her closest female friends but she never made our business between each other public. One thing Kaine and the rest of the stalkers don't know about our sexual interactions is the pictures she sent me during that intimate phase of us knowing each other. I don't have them now because I lost the discord account that it was on but even if I did, none of those pictures she sent me would be leaked even if I was upset toward her. Logically, it would be pointless anyways since Rose has made it public knowledge that it doesn't bother her. Doesn't matter though, it would have been ethically degenerate of me to do so because she trusted me even though in that week of knowing her we were complete strangers, so she sent me some naked pictures of herself.
Point is, my ex girlfriends have it out for me. I never had a respectful break up until I met Rose. Yes I did some terrible things to hurt her but all of it was under the leadership of some one else. To this day I feel regret and guilt for the things I have done and during my lonesome lurks on this thread I become philosophical in my own thoughts like I did peyote under the stars because of the fact a potential friendship was ultimately sacrificed because of some one else having influential ego swings on their behalf.
My ex girlfriends decided to come together and leak my messages between one of them. Messages I sent to a beautiful girl I adored every night and would be in discord sleep calls with, tucking her in to bed with my voice that I dearly adored just for my messages I put my heart into, to become voided & ignored to be later used against me because of a former best friend of mine has a vendetta against me. Rose and her female friends showed me what sociopath disorder is and made me understand that I was emotionally abused by someone that kept secrets from me. Being an actual porn addict for 2 years during that time messed with me sexually and I became depraved toward females. They were egged on even by this person to where I thought rape was a way of surviving me lustful urges.
Rose had plans for me but I became too attached to her too quick again knowing she was already in a relationship and it had to happen on a Friday night while I was smoking weed and not thinking. I hardly touch marijuana but my monthly bonus was denied because of issues at work. I was in a relationship with a girl that cheated on me that same week. You're probably thinking I was suicidal. Yes I was but I have been through that song and dance already so it wasn't even close to bad. But I was really under the weather and I was able to obtain a fresh batch of weed straight from the source so I was feeling good about it so I started to smoke it for my medicinal weed because I'm personally against it but I had nothing else to kill the sorrow.
Anyways, I had a little too much so I became overly sentimental on discord with Rose while she was hanging out with a best friend of hers. Before I knew it I started verbally expressing temptations toward her and it was crossing the line. Her friend was becoming confrontational with me and I was telling her to shut the fuck up & called her a whore. Rose started to cry and her boyfriend got on the microphone and started to confront me as well. I hardly remember but I do remember the guy was pissed off at me, Roses best friend was pissed off me and it was boiling over to the point we were giving each other death threats then I was banned from the server and her boyfriend had her block me.
Yes I fucked up but I owned up to it and I don't expect for her to forgive me. Restraining regression into porn has never been so hard in my life. Wanting to have sex to kill my pain has been such a demonic urge in my life now. Now with my recent breakup with that girl I really adored I have thinking so hard about one night stands but I am against that hook up culture nonsense but the need to feel something from a girl is so brutal on my mind and my body and things at work aren't getting better.
So if we're going to sit around the camp fire and accuse YandereTheory of misconduct at least give yourselves a better look. I've been through hell in back with love. But I never cheated, I never ghosted, I never wanted to hurt a girl or put my hands on her. My exs can sit here and say I abused them but they know I never did that to them. Yes I may have had heated arguments with them but I never told them to kill themselves or forced nudes from them. If I want nudes from someone, I'm going to find someone who is a freak like me and will send me them every day I wake up. The nudes I got from Rose was all her doing not mine. Did I jerk off when I first got them without even expecting it? Fuck yes I did, what hormonal man wouldn't. But one thing I did not do is abuse her trust like Kaine, Dustin, & the rest of the assholes did.
It's whatever though, I'm here to show the dark lord person behind this that I'm above them for what they did to me and I'm here to show Rose that I'm redeemable and I want to show her boyfriend that I'm very sorry about what I tried to do to her that night. He probably hates me so much he would never trust me around her again but I have nothing else to do. I broke up recently, I'm lonelier than ever and what's crazy to me, my last girl friend complained to me and my friend about being lonely but I would send her voice messages of me crying, telling her I wish she was a virgin and that I would take her virginity with pride because I lowered my sacred standards for her. She used to do drugs, she was abused and used for 8 years and then she tells me one night that the attachment shit was never real and I left the discord call and dropped to the floor sobbing uncontrollably but one thing I did not do is leak pictures of her. I fucking hate her deep down but I won't go that low to come here on this site and dox her.
And you fools can try and find her all you want but the odds of that happening is crazy, it's like winning the mega millions. The only possible way you guys can get in communication with her is if she comes here and she knows about this site but she's not knowledgeable about how a forum works and her attention span is worse than mine so, yeah keep dreaming.
Point is, my ex girlfriends have it out for me. I never had a respectful break up until I met Rose. Yes I did some terrible things to hurt her but all of it was under the leadership of some one else. To this day I feel regret and guilt for the things I have done and during my lonesome lurks on this thread I become philosophical in my own thoughts like I did peyote under the stars because of the fact a potential friendship was ultimately sacrificed because of some one else having influential ego swings on their behalf.
My ex girlfriends decided to come together and leak my messages between one of them. Messages I sent to a beautiful girl I adored every night and would be in discord sleep calls with, tucking her in to bed with my voice that I dearly adored just for my messages I put my heart into, to become voided & ignored to be later used against me because of a former best friend of mine has a vendetta against me. Rose and her female friends showed me what sociopath disorder is and made me understand that I was emotionally abused by someone that kept secrets from me. Being an actual porn addict for 2 years during that time messed with me sexually and I became depraved toward females. They were egged on even by this person to where I thought rape was a way of surviving me lustful urges.
Rose had plans for me but I became too attached to her too quick again knowing she was already in a relationship and it had to happen on a Friday night while I was smoking weed and not thinking. I hardly touch marijuana but my monthly bonus was denied because of issues at work. I was in a relationship with a girl that cheated on me that same week. You're probably thinking I was suicidal. Yes I was but I have been through that song and dance already so it wasn't even close to bad. But I was really under the weather and I was able to obtain a fresh batch of weed straight from the source so I was feeling good about it so I started to smoke it for my medicinal weed because I'm personally against it but I had nothing else to kill the sorrow.
Anyways, I had a little too much so I became overly sentimental on discord with Rose while she was hanging out with a best friend of hers. Before I knew it I started verbally expressing temptations toward her and it was crossing the line. Her friend was becoming confrontational with me and I was telling her to shut the fuck up & called her a whore. Rose started to cry and her boyfriend got on the microphone and started to confront me as well. I hardly remember but I do remember the guy was pissed off at me, Roses best friend was pissed off me and it was boiling over to the point we were giving each other death threats then I was banned from the server and her boyfriend had her block me.
Yes I fucked up but I owned up to it and I don't expect for her to forgive me. Restraining regression into porn has never been so hard in my life. Wanting to have sex to kill my pain has been such a demonic urge in my life now. Now with my recent breakup with that girl I really adored I have thinking so hard about one night stands but I am against that hook up culture nonsense but the need to feel something from a girl is so brutal on my mind and my body and things at work aren't getting better.
So if we're going to sit around the camp fire and accuse YandereTheory of misconduct at least give yourselves a better look. I've been through hell in back with love. But I never cheated, I never ghosted, I never wanted to hurt a girl or put my hands on her. My exs can sit here and say I abused them but they know I never did that to them. Yes I may have had heated arguments with them but I never told them to kill themselves or forced nudes from them. If I want nudes from someone, I'm going to find someone who is a freak like me and will send me them every day I wake up. The nudes I got from Rose was all her doing not mine. Did I jerk off when I first got them without even expecting it? Fuck yes I did, what hormonal man wouldn't. But one thing I did not do is abuse her trust like Kaine, Dustin, & the rest of the assholes did.
It's whatever though, I'm here to show the dark lord person behind this that I'm above them for what they did to me and I'm here to show Rose that I'm redeemable and I want to show her boyfriend that I'm very sorry about what I tried to do to her that night. He probably hates me so much he would never trust me around her again but I have nothing else to do. I broke up recently, I'm lonelier than ever and what's crazy to me, my last girl friend complained to me and my friend about being lonely but I would send her voice messages of me crying, telling her I wish she was a virgin and that I would take her virginity with pride because I lowered my sacred standards for her. She used to do drugs, she was abused and used for 8 years and then she tells me one night that the attachment shit was never real and I left the discord call and dropped to the floor sobbing uncontrollably but one thing I did not do is leak pictures of her. I fucking hate her deep down but I won't go that low to come here on this site and dox her.
And you fools can try and find her all you want but the odds of that happening is crazy, it's like winning the mega millions. The only possible way you guys can get in communication with her is if she comes here and she knows about this site but she's not knowledgeable about how a forum works and her attention span is worse than mine so, yeah keep dreaming.
