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[kiwifails]

Shadow people are such a weird case, I've seen them, especially when I was younger - but I know it's the brain playing tricks on us, I mean every single night we all go through episodes where we hallucinate and see shit through dreams, the fact that things like sleep paralysis exist too where we can be both awake and asleep at the same time is peculiar. I always explore and research these things because of how vivid it gets for me. Shadow people are so odd to me, it feels like it's the brain making up for a lack of activity since whenever I've witnessed shadow people from the corner of my eye, it's usually late at night, when most people are asleep, and I'm alone, or in an empty area like a parking lot late at night. The brain will always want to make up for lack of activity, I also go through an ordeal where late at night if it's too quiet, I'll hear distant instrumentals in my head, music or sounds that aren't there.

I don't know, I've had a few incidences where I'm out in the desert - just me, the wind, the coyotes, and the sand. I don't know if it's my brain playing tricks on me or things moving around. But you see things that look like shadows, out the peripheral of your eye, and you hear them, and the back of your neck sticks up because you feel that hot breath; and you don't know if it's just the desert wind. And you just don't feel as alone as you did before. And then, there's that noise - that restless, shifting noise.


Maybe it's just our brains trying to fill input to make up for a lack of stimulation while trying to reason the world around us as it shuts down for sleep.

 

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I don't know, I've had a few incidences where I'm out in the desert - just me, the wind, the coyotes, and the sand. I don't know if it's my brain playing tricks on me or things moving around. But you see things that look like shadows, out the peripheral of your eye, and you hear them, and the back of your neck sticks up because you feel that hot breath; and you don't know if it's just the desert wind. And you just don't feel as alone as you did before. And then, there's that noise - that restless, shifting noise.


Maybe it's just our brains trying to fill input to make up for a lack of stimulation while trying to reason the world around us as it shuts down for sleep.

Yeah, especially in a place like the desert is where people have reported seeing things, even bodies of water that aren't actually there from desperation of thirst and dehydration - but it's for sure a case where in places like that, our minds will want to make up for a lack of stimuli. I've never been to a desert before, kind of always wanted to though even though it's nothing but dry hot air, and sand, but I've always thought that being in a desert at night time, surrounded by sand and being safe about it could be fun. This probably just stems from a video game I played when I was a kid though , "Breath Of Fire III", where there was a whole desert part of the game where you needed to navigate out of it by following a specific star, for some reason this scene always felt so relaxing for me and stuck with me.

At this point everything about me has been put out there, so I don't mind sharing even more,
but I create "music" to kind of vent the things that I hear when my brain is trying to make up some noise when things are too quiet, though these are also pieces I've considered putting in my visual novel - as well as some new future pieces I'll be working on that will be posted to this channel of mine.

 

[kiwifails]

Yeah, especially in a place like the desert is where people have reported seeing things, even bodies of water that aren't actually there from desperation of thirst and dehydration - but it's for sure a case where in places like that, our minds will want to make up for a lack of stimuli. I've never been to a desert before, kind of always wanted to though even though it's nothing but dry hot air, and sand, but I've always thought that being in a desert at night time, surrounded by sand and being safe about it could be fun. This probably just stems from a video game I played when I was a kid though , "Breath Of Fire III", where there was a whole desert part of the game where you needed to navigate out of it by following a specific star, for some reason this scene always felt so relaxing for me and stuck with me.

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At this point everything about me has been put out there, so I don't mind sharing even more,
but I create "music" to kind of vent the things that I hear when my brain is trying to make up some noise when things are too quiet, though these are also pieces I've considered putting in my visual novel - as well as some new future pieces I'll be working on that will be posted to this channel of mine.

A desert isn't just a place with sand and dry hot air.
Behold the Majesty of some of America's deserts

Anza borrego springs State Park San Diego county California

Bentonite Hills and the Paria Mountains central Utah

Petrified national Forest California

Painted desert Arizona

Gila national Forest New Mexico
Cosmic campground

 

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A desert isn't just a place with sand and dry hot air.
Behold the Majesty of some of America's deserts

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Anza borrego springs State Park San Diego county California

Bentonite Hills and the Paria Mountains central Utah
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Petrified national Forest California
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Painted desert Arizona
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Gila national Forest New Mexico
Cosmic campground
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That last one though, man would I love to visit somewhere like that, even the name is pretty "Cosmic Campground." some goals of mine when I'm less of a shut in is to travel, could be fun to see the world. It's no secret that I don't have a job and I like to stay inside, I mean can't really do the things I want to do having no money - but these are things that make me want to push myself to do more with myself.

 

[Gore San]

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So I've had the flu for the past fucking week and slept all day, my bad if I've been late on responses especially in DMS, but I had a sleep paralysis which I haven't had in a long time - it's probably been about a year or so since the last time I had a sleep paralysis, and I just remember it felt like something was grinding into me on top of me, and I saw like a melting darkened face for a few moments before I jolted awake. Can you fucking not @thefrogninja.

Sleep Paralysis has always been something I've been interested in alongside lucid dreaming, it's just weird that something so profound can actually be an occurrence that happens when we go to sleep. Lucid dreams, Lucid nightmares, Sleep paralysis, False awakenings. I've naturally gone through all these things since I was a kid but it's rare when I meet someone else who has experienced these things to the same degree that I have.

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I try to control my dreams when possible.

 

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I try to control my dreams when possible.

You lucid dream too?

 

[Gore San]

You lucid dream too?

Yeah, I also have had sleep paralysis and waking up to other dreams.

 

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Yeah, I also have had sleep paralysis and waking up to other dreams.

If you don't mind me asking, can I ask for some details? Like what kind of dreams, atmospheres, what happens and so forth? It's just some shit I'm hyper fixated on since it's so interesting to me that when we sleep we can be inside a dream and be aware that our body is outside of ourselves in bed and still be able to roam around a space that shouldn't exist but does.

 

[kiwifails]

That last one though, man would I love to visit somewhere like that, even the name is pretty "Cosmic Campground." some goals of mine when I'm less of a shut in is to travel, could be fun to see the world. It's no secret that I don't have a job and I like to stay inside, I mean can't really do the things I want to do having no money - but these are things that make me want to push myself to do more with myself.

I'm sure you'll find your time to bloom
I've actually never read anything in your thread so I don't know anything about you.
So this is like meeting somebody new.

 

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I'm sure you'll find your time to bloom
I've actually never read anything in your thread so I don't know anything about you.
So this is like meeting somebody new.

Reading anything posted by anyone but me from this thread would be redundant since people will have their own made up head canons on me based on things I've posted that 90 percent of the time are just shit posts and me not actually being serious, the only place I've really come to be myself is my own blog website, and now this thread. People will always write a narrative about somebody they don't like to paint them to be somebody they aren't, so it's nice to actually be able to just be forthcoming now and let people get to know me directly from the source, the real person. I don't even have anything bad to say about anybody whose commented this thread, even knowing some of the people and who they are behind the accounts I don't feel any resentment because I realize that gossip is just a fun pass time for some people.

 

[Gore San]

If you don't mind me asking, can I ask for some details? Like what kind of dreams, atmospheres, what happens and so forth? It's just some shit I'm hyper fixated on since it's so interesting to me that when we sleep we can be inside a dream and be aware that our body is outside of ourselves in bed and still be able to roam around a space that shouldn't exist but does.

Sometimes my family will be in them, old houses I lived at and stuff. Places I've been. Friends I know and used to know. Sometimes it's completely different. Sometimes I get sleep paralysis demons, they don't always look the same but one sort of looked like this. Typically I wake up from a nightmare into a sleep paralysis dream in bed and something comes along when I can't move. Other times control it and get powers like flying and telekinesis. And can bring charactes I to my dreams. Even cartoon characters and it looks like who framed Roger rabbit with cartoons and real people.

 

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Sometimes my family will be in them, old houses I lived at and stuff. Places I've been. Friends I know and used to know. Sometimes it's completely different. Sometimes I get sleep paralysis demons, they don't always look the same but one sort of looked like this. Typically I wake up from a nightmare into a sleep paralysis dream in bed and something comes along when I can't move. Other times control it and get powers like flying and telekinesis. And can bring charactes I to my dreams. Even cartoon characters and it looks like who framed Roger rabbit with cartoons and real people.View attachment 82691

This image and it's face is actually somewhat similar to the face I saw yesterday when I had a flu induced sleep paralysis, like not the body, but the face, just hollowed and morphed and not human - but it was like up close, like face to face for several seconds. It's interesting how things like this are universal. I was also sleeping on my back, and for some reason sleeping on your back is also heavily connected to sleep paralysis, which I've never understood. There's times where I'll also have sleep paralysis, and I won't see a figure or anything - but rather my arm or limbs will be contorted in really weird and uncanny ways, like my fingers being longer than they should be and mangled, and I'll just stare at it until I wake up since I can't move. It's so weird how these things work.

 

[Gore San]

This image and it's face is actually somewhat similar to the face I saw yesterday when I had a flu induced sleep paralysis, like not the body, but the face, just hollowed and morphed and not human - but it was like up close, like face to face for several seconds. It's interesting how things like this are universal. I was also sleeping on my back, and for some reason sleeping on your back is also heavily connected to sleep paralysis, which I've never understood. There's times where I'll also have sleep paralysis, and I won't see a figure or anything - but rather my arm or limbs will be contorted in really weird and uncanny ways, like my fingers being longer than they should be and mangled, and I'll just stare at it until I wake up since I can't move. It's so weird how these things work.

I've also looked in mirrors and transformed into a monster before and also got pulled in by my reflection a few times.

 

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I've also looked in mirrors and transformed into a monster before and also got pulled in by my reflection a few times.

Yeah, mirrors people say you should avoid when dreaming - I've been fine though with mirrors, I had a lucid dream awhile back where I was in the bathroom in front of my mirror, and when I realized I was dreaming I remember touching my face and then testing to see if I could change my eye color, and I'd tell myself that I wanted my eyes to be hot pink for instance, then I'd blink and when I looked in the mirror my eye color actually changed. I did this a few times, before I decided to just start roaming around the dream atmosphere.

 

[Gore San]

Oh right. Another thing. The dream people get hostile when they notice I figured out I'm dreaming sometimes and start changing too much stuff. I either have to run or fly away if there are too many or fight and go on murder rampages as they try and kill me. Pain is weird too. The environment changes and is often non euclidean so going back to one area is different next time and things always disappear and change. So I loose things and people I'm with.

It's like my dreams are just the backrooms lol

 

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Oh right. Another thing. The dream people get hostile when they notice I figured out I'm dreaming sometimes and start changing too much stuff. I either have to run or fly away if there are too many or fight and go on murder rampages as they try and kill me. Pain is weird too. The environment changes and is often non euclidean so going back to one area is different next time and things always disappear and change. So I loose things and people I'm with.

Bruh, I've never understood this. If dream people are a part of ourselves, our self conscious, then why do they suddenly become hostile when they know that we know we are in a dream? They don't always get hostile for me, in fact sometimes when I lucid dream I like to mess with dream characters by telling them that they are inside a dream and that they aren't real, and they will actually try to argue that they are real - but I also had a lucid nightmare once, where I was in this large dark house, with a woman chasing after me with a knife. I knew I was dreaming, and I kept trying to wake up, but the dream actually locked me in, each time I got "caught" the dream would black out - then I'd just wake up in the same dream in a new part of the same house with the same woman coming after me. Pain in dreams/nightmares are weird. Is it like - a warm pressure for you? I remember in this same dream the woman grabbed me and started hacking at my neck with a knife with a huge uncanny smile. I remember thinking "Wow this is really fucked up" and wanted her to hurry up because it felt like an uncomfortable warm pressure, and then I finally woke up.

 

[Gore San]

Sort of, sometimes I get a sting but it's not something too intense. One thing I find it hard to get used to is when I learn I can still breathe underwater and in space. Flying sometimes makes me out of breath.

 

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Sort of, sometimes I get a sting but it's not something too intense. One thing I find it hard to get used to is when I learn I can still breathe underwater and in space. Flying sometimes makes me out of breath.

You can also stay in lucid dreams longer by not blinking, in dreams people forget that they don't need to blink or anything since your real eyes are shut and in lucid dreams blinking a lot can make the dream start to shut down if you're trying to stay inside of a lucid dream longer. I don't think I've ever had any under water or space related dreams that caught me by surprise, whenever I have dreams they're also very in line with the backrooms as well, where the spaces are always unnatural, like going down an elevator which leads to an indoor forest that's surrounded by walls and a ceiling, but there's still trees, grass, dirt paths and so forth. I could talk about dream related stuff for so long, it's just so insane how real everything feels when it's happening, then when we wake up it's like talking about a story.

 

[Gore San]

You can also stay in lucid dreams longer by not blinking, in dreams people forget that they don't need to blink or anything since your real eyes are shut and in lucid dreams blinking a lot can make the dream start to shut down if you're trying to stay inside of a lucid dream longer. I don't think I've ever had any under water or space related dreams that caught me by surprise, whenever I have dreams they're also very in line with the backrooms as well, where the spaces are always unnatural, like going down an elevator which leads to an indoor forest that's surrounded by walls and a ceiling, but there's still trees, grass, dirt paths and so forth. I could talk about dream related stuff for so long, it's just so insane how real everything feels when it's happening, then when we wake up it's like talking about a story.

I would dream of jumping into rivers canals or the ocean and would never drown, sometimes the ocean has sea monsters though and I have to swim away. I just fly up out of the earth orbit to space when I learn I can fly sometimes and even did it to get away from hostile dream entities. I go to other planets and even stars without getting hurt.

 

[Fedbuster]

So what exactly does any of this random schizophrenic ranting have to do with Katelyn Rose?