I just wanted to post this because I thought it was a cute piece of art that a friend drew for me, I honestly get so humbled when people always draw artwork for me because it's just a really nice thing of them to do and I always get really cute artwork from time to time and it makes me kind of happy that people have made me into a character that is drawn in adorable ways a lot of the time, it makes me want to keep doing fun makeup stuff and cosplays because it just motivates me seeing how other people see me in the ways they draw me I love it.
Of course though there's the flip side of the coin where there's that rule out there with if something exists there's porn of it and I've gotten a lot of artists who have drawn NSFW of me which is all collected into it's own folder and not even gonna lie some if it is pretty insane like one NSFW piece of a guard from the game fear and hunger completely ravaging me.
I haven't been able to sleep tonight so I've just been listening to music while organizing my desk space and looking into new books to purchase myself, I don't know why I haven't been able to sleep very well the past few weeks - my mind is just always on overdrive with disorganized thoughts that won't allow my brain to be quiet and sound. I end up making posts like these to mind vomit, which helps to a degree since it helps me ramble in a way I can visualize and get my thoughts more in check. I've been feeling pretty alone and I'm not sure why when I have a circle of friends and people who care about me, but I've just been feeling lost and completely worn out, there's a lot of bad habits I still need to work on with myself.